꒰👁️꒱ 𝕸𝖆𝖓𝖉𝖊𝖑𝖆 𝕮𝖆𝖙𝖆𝖑𝖔𝖌𝖚𝖊

Influence | Mark x Suicidal!Reader

WARNING: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE MURDER, HEARTBREAK, GUNS, ATTACKING, AND ARGUING!!!

For all that are suicidal I hope your lives get better! I wish the best for you all❤

EPD: 9.5

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9/3/??
"I love Mark, he is my crush. I never got to admit to him that I liked him. Another girl at our school is going to make a move on him. I can't have her take him away from me, I can't. She doesn't even love him, she is just trying to get back at me. I dread going to school tomorrow and coming back to the house.."

9/4/??
"She asked him out today. He accepted. I can't face this, I can't. I loved him, I truly did. Unlike that hoe who he thinks loves him and actually wants to date him. Now I'm going to have to see them together for the rest of my life! I hate her so much, I do!"

9/5/??
"I couldn't believe my eyes. They were kissing, practically making out in the kitchen today. Mark didn't even look like he wanted to, but maybe it was just my mind slightly changing his expression, just for my liking. Also, she told me to kill myself today. I have a better idea though! How about I kill her and then kill myself? It would work, no jail time. She is coming over tonight, I just need Mark to separate from her so my plan can go through. I hope Mark will realize one day that I love him. I'm practically saving him from this hags wrath, because if he broke up with her she would have her posse go after him.."

I slammed my book shut and placed the pen next to it, before I wiped the tears on my cheeks. A murder-su1c1de was going to happen tonight. I knew Mark would never love me after killing her. But I'd still have a special place for him on my heart. I stood up from my desk and stormed out of my room. Mark was currently picking up the whore Julia. While he's doing that I'd go nicely borrow his gun from his safe. I knew the code.

I skipped to his room, my tears falling from my eyes. I cautiously opened the door to his room before stepping in. My eyes gazed the room until I spotted the safe. I then again sadistically skipped over to the safe and bent down, my back turned to the door. I popped in the code quickly. '48203'

The door made a pop sound as the lock came undone. I opened the door and looked at the glock that was kept inside. I carefully put my hand on the gun and picked it up. It was so beautiful, I can imagine Mark calling it his baby. Tears started to roll down my face from the thought of Mark. I'm doing this for him..

But would he really want this?
Would he really want me to die?
For Julia to die?..
He would be traumatized...
I don't want to hurt him..

I froze when I heard someone clear their throat. I whipped around, gun in hand. I probably had the most fucked up face on. My eyes my Mark's. He looked like an upset mother, his arms were crossed and he has the pose and everything. I loved his personality. Mark's eyes scanned my body. I saw it go down and down until it reached my hand... SHIT! RIGHT I had the gun. It was too late though, Mark lunged at me. I toppled to the floor with him on top of me, trying to get the gun out of my hand.

Unfortunately, Mark was stronger than me so he pinned my wrists down with one of his hands before holding my body down with the other. Pretty much trapping me underneath him. I blushed at the situation but I was going to commit a murder. Wait, wasn't Mark supposed to be picking up Julia?

"Mark! What the fuck!" A sqeaky voice called. Oh, there she is. "So, the trip wasn't as long as I expected." I muttered. Mark snatched the gun out of my hand. Our eyes met one again. His calm, doe eyes were now filled with anger and....worry?

"They had a gun.." Mark says to Julia. Julia gasps and dramatically covers her mouth. "You freak! Where you actually going to listen to my advice? Ha, pathetic!" Julia screeches. I rolled my eyes as tears start to form. "Aww is the baby gonn-" "Julia, what do you mean 'listen to my advice'?" Mark cuts off Julia and turns himself in her direction.

Now it's her turn to freeze in place. I guess she didn't mean to let that slip. "You wanted y/n to kill themselves?"  Mark turns his head to you. Instead if anger, it's pure worry and sadness in his eyes. I got a flash of rage before he turned his attention back to Julia. "Julia! This is my fucking friend! We've been friends for forever. I'm sick of your bullshit! You act like we're girlfriend and boyfriend after one fucking date and now you do this!? I never wanted to date you, I never loved you!" Mark yells.

My eyes open in shock. "Well your friend over here is an attention whore, they had to go," Julia openly says. I growl but Mark puts his hand out to stop me from charging at that hoe. He knew I wouldn't hesitate to fuck a bitch up if I was really angry. Why didn't I just do that before? "Get. Out" Mark barks at her. She raised a brow. "Get the fuck out before I call the cops!!" Mark screams at her. She scampers away like an abandoned puppy, making sure to slam the door on her way out.

Mark looks at me. Tears are already falling down my cheeks once again. He runs to me and hugs me. "P-please don't leave me." Mark mutters as he buries his head in the crook of my neck. I was shocked. "I-" "Say you won't! Please.." Mark pleads. "I- I won't.." He immediately picks me up and cradles me like a baby as I sobbed into his shoulder. Mark takes me to my bedroom and sits on my bed as I vent to him. I then decide I could show him my diary, the two pages. Not the last one though. He'll never know what u was going to do. It's not a murder su1c1de anymore. It's just murder.

"Y/n.. You had a crush on me?" Mark asks as he finished reading my two pages.

I was so scared that he'd abandon me for it. I slowly nodded. Mark smiled and scooted closer to me. "I love you too. I never thought you loved me so I went on a date with Julia to try and move on. Luckily it didnt work.."

There will be a part 2 soon. Instead a killer!reader ;)