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15.

I looked away from him not knowing what to think, what is he doing that is that bad he can't tell anyone?

"don't look away" he said quietly pulling me by chin to look back at him

"am I in danger beside you?" I asked and he shook his head

"I will never hurt you that way, so no, you're not" he said

"hurt me? what are you doing Leo?" I asked

"you won't want to hear from me ever again if I tell you" he said

"you can't know if you didn't tell me" I said

"believe me, I know you will" he said

"I'm seriously worry about you now" I said 

"what can be that bad that noone can know? That I won't want to hear from you if you tell me?" I asked

"you really won't give up?" he asked

"no" I said

"I see" he said

"I'm waiting" I said and he rolled his eyes

"then dress up so you can leave" he said and I just laughed

"if I will want to leave you won't stop me so I will have time to dress up" I said

"you don't want to hear" he said

"I want to" I said

"before I tell you, you have to know that I won't tell you the reason for it and you have to promise me you won't tell anyone about this, not Ben or Ela, not Kyle not Phoebe or Alex or the worst my parents, noone will ever know about it, okay?" he asked

"okay" I said still thinking it's nothing that bad

"promise me" he said

"I promise I won't tell anyone" I said

"you still can give up" he said

"just said it already" I said frustrated

"when I said you're not that type of girl I meant you're not a girl for one night, when I said you can't fall for me I meant it because I don't want to hurt you" he said and even I wanted to say something I just stayed quiet because if I didn't, he will stop telling me

"The whole week I was out every night didn't sleep in one place for more than a night. I'm doing one-night-stand, disgusting but in last a week I've been with 4 girls and that's nothing knew to me the most not when someone piss me off like you did that night. I wanted to kiss you that night, so bad, but I couldn't, because I knew you would fall and that I'm gonna hurt you, that I'm gonna break your heart when you find out and I didn't and still don't want that. Maybe I'm just stupid thinking that you would fall for me but I'm scared you would and I can't let that happen, for your good and because I promised myself I'm gonna take care of you, make sure you're okay and not hurt from my side because that's least I own your dad. I don't get attached to people and I don't want to, I don't have feelings, I'm hurting girls, I'm cold and I've been like that for last 2 years, that what you saw yesterday and this morning you won't see ever again, because that's not me" he said as I was just sitting beside him looking at him not believing

"you believe it's not you, but I believe that Leo that I saw yesterday and this morning is real Leo, that this is you, real you and everything else is just a mask with what you are trying to hide your real self" I said and he looked at me shaking his head

"this is me Grace and it won't change" he said

"how can you say that? why are you giving up?" I asked as tears started filling my eyes

"don't do it, no....Grace don't" he said and I knew he was talking about my tears

"you don't know what I am really doing with those girls, you would react totally different if you knew" he said

"I would react the same if I knew the reason for that" I said

"I told you I won't tell you that" he said

"why did you kissed me yesterday? Are you aware you took my first kiss on that stupid way?" I asked and he looked at me in shock

"you said I'm not that type of girl but you thought I had my first kiss?" I asked trying not to laugh at him

He is pissing me off, he is so damn dumb and it's making me mad knowing he is trying to be someone I believe he is not.

"but you kissed me back!!" he raised his voice

"because I liked it you dumbass!!" I said loudly and he just pulled me by neck kissing me

He so damn know what he is doing and I can't resist him even I know those lips were kissing couple of other girls this week, that he was sleeping with couple of other girls but didn't even tried to touch me yesterday. Now he can't say that he doesn't care about me because he showed that he does with all he did when I woke him up from that nightmare. I should ask for reason for that nightmare but I can't now, not when he is kissing me so damn good.

How I'm gonna tell my parents? How I'm gonna tell mum what happened between us after I didn't want to hear about him nor to see him for almost two months since they got back?