It Ends Where It All Started ©️

67.

~LATE JULY, 2041~
~GRACE~

"I love you" I said rubbing my nose over his as we both smile

He just pulled me closer as I was laying on my hip beside him.

"when I said I wish we were alone I meant it, but now....I just wish we can stay like this forever, me holding you close and you doing such a cute things smiling. Seeing you happy is my biggest blessing, Grace, and I hope you know that" he said as I couldn't take a smile of my face

"don't ever stop smiling, okay?" he asked and I just snuggled to him

"I was sweet enough for today and now I must to reprimand you" he said and I looked at him confused

He just said he wants to stay like this forever not to have sex that he mentioned earlier tonight.

"Don't you dare do something like this ever again, okay? I know I'm just your boyfriend but damnit Grace" I just stared at him not knowing what I did

"If I ever hear that you saw some dress and liked it but didn't buy it we gonna argue badly. I want you to buy every piece of dress you like or even better to tell me and I will buy it for you. I know I haven't said it a lot of times but for God sake Grace, you have the best legs and you're always hiding it. I mean, that's good because I don't want other guys stare at them but don't hide them from me"

Did Phoebe really played me and told him I didn't want to buy this dress and that I was hiding it under all my clothing and didn't want to bring it with me here? She wouldn't do that.

"The way you looked tonight made me think pretty dirty but as I said I want to stay like this, cuddled up with you, we're good tonight, okay? Just chilling here and talking" he said and I was really wondering what came through his mind tonight

I'm also worried about him, I know he said he wants us to slow down because we were going too fast and that caused us to argue. Knowing he is such a touchy guy and he didn't touch me for almost two months make me really worried.

He always used to rest his hand on my butt when we were going to sleep but know it's only my back.

He used to kiss my neck really often and now it's only my cheeks, lips and hand.

He used to hold my thigh when we were in company with other guys but know he just holds my hand.

He used to slap my butt out from nowhere through the day and now he don't do it anymore.

He used to get to bathroom when I was taking a shower forgetting to lock doors and now when I leave it open on the purpose he don't even look into the bathroom.

He really used to be such a dirty minded and now when I look at him he is totally different boy last two months since we had that arguement before squad holiday.

"can I ask you something?" I asked looking at him

"why are you even asking that, you can ask whatever you want" he said

"so...if I, for example, do something like....I don't know....climb on your lap, kiss your neck and try to turn you on....what would you do?" I asked

"turn you down" he said and I didn't know how to react

"there is no need to try and turn me on, because you already did with just walking into the room in that dress. But I will turn you down because I don't want to get back to arguing with you. Last time I went fast with our relationship we used to argue a lot and I don't want that. All I want with you is healthy relationship and that what we had was everything just not the healthy relationship I want with you. I want healthy relationship, Grace, not healthy sex" he said and I almost laughed but then I remembered that this is serious and that I have to act like that

"isn't relationship to pleasure both sides?" I asked and he looked at me confused

"what are you talking about?" he asked

"in my definition, relationship should be fair to both sides and I feel like we are fair only to you now" I said

I didn't want to start an argument again and on his birthday but I just couldn't hold it all in myself anymore.

"I don't get what you want to say, Grace" he said as we both sat up on the bed

"all the times until now I always gave up to you, I give it to you whenever you wanted to never turning you down and for once I ask for it and you are turning me down" I said

"because I want to take it slow, Grace, why don't you understand? What we used to do wasn't the right way of treating you and I want to make it up" he said cupping my face

"does your taking it slow means we will have sex once per year?" I asked and he took a deep breath clearly trying to hold himself back from arguing

"why don't you understand me?" he asked looking away from me

"Tell me if I'm wrong but I thought past a month showed you what I want from our relationship but now I don't think it did" he said

"I'm trying to be opened up the whole way to you, tell you what I think, how I feel but as much I did it you say something that make me doubt myself, it's probably because you're scared that I will hurt you or do something bad but I don't want you to be scared in my company, you should feel safe not scared and I hate that I can't give you that safety" he said and his voice was clearly breaking apart