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~December, 2041~
~LEO~

It's been two and half months since she left. The worst weeks of my life.

I was constantly on the road London- Leicester because of trainings and late at night when I made it home all I pray for is for her to wait for me so I can get in warm bed, hug her tightly, tell her how much I'm grateful for her but she's not there, she's in miles away country.

I didn't want to be shitty boyfriend and make her think I'm not letting her anywhere, to make her dreams come true but deep inside I was scared for her.

I was scared that something will happen to her while I'm not beside her, keeping her safe.

I trust her more than anyone else but I was still scared she will find someone else and the most of everything I was scared that someone will use her there and I will never forget myself that.

My mind is still dark, not over what happened to me and because of that I'm imagining things that I don't want to ever happen.

Yesterday I woke up in the middle of night because my stupid mind didn't let me sleep. I was seeing her coming through my front doors, ruin make up, crying, ripped clothes on her as she is telling me some guy put a hand on her.

The worst nightmare I've ever have.

I wanted to immediately call her, make sure she is okay but it was 3 in the morning.

I couldn't just call her asking her how is she because it will be too obvious that something is going on.

That's why I sent her a message in the morning telling her to text me when she wake up.

Fortunately, an hour and half later she texted me with the most beautiful and the cutest picture of her, my sleepy head smiling to the camera as she took a selfie.

As much as I fought myself I couldn't help but think what she's been doing those weeks, 6 weeks there without me. I couldn't help but think what she hide under that duvet that she pulled over herself.

I still can't make it up how I will manage to be without her for 4 more months.

I'm scared that I will hurt her when she get back out of need, out of all this missing and lust that's coming up when I just think about her and to be honest, that's what I'm doing the whole day, thinking about her.

Thinking about her helps to get along everything that is going on in the club. We are not at our best and everyone see the light in me because I'm playing like an idiot, trying to be the best version of me, to score goals and that all just for her, because I promised her.

"LEO" Daniel called for me as ball almost hit me in the head

"what's on your mind? You're so out" he said getting closer to me

"I'm good, don't bother" I brushed him off

"you say that every time but I'm not blind" he said not giving up

"I see that you miss her and it's more than obvious that you play every match for, scoring goals for her, but then at trainings you're so out of reach, in your world" he said

"noone will ever understand our situation so don't try" I said running away and to make final round of experience to finally finish today's training, go get home and call her

•••••••••

The moment my phone buzzed and the sound echoed through the whole, empty car, my face light up.

I put her on speaker giving my attention to the road but still taking quick looks at the screen to see her.

"hey, you're going somewhere?" she asked and I shook my head

"hey my love.... I'm going home from training" I said as she smiled

"last matches, huh?" she asked

"yep, I'm missing you here" I said

"you softie" she laughed

"what are you doing? Everything's okay there?" I asked

"yeah, everything's fine, I've been to Avila and Segovia today" she said

"how was it?" I asked

"never been to place like that so far and it was incredible, an amazing experience and I'm glad I got a chance to see it" she said

She's so happy, this makes her happy and I'm glad she got to experience that but deep down I am still scared and I don't think that feeling will leave me until I get to hug her, hold her close and see it my eyes that noone touch her or did something to her.

"I'm so glad to hear it, I'm so happy for you Grace" I said taking a quick look at her

"how's London?" she asked

"who precisely?" I asked smiling at her

"everyone, from my family to you, your family, Phoebe, boys" she said

"I don't know much but I can say we are good, spend almost every weekend with yours so I guess they are all good, missing you, but good" I said

"I miss you all" she said and sighed

"Grace, don't do it..... don't cry, okay? Please" I stopped car taking my phone in hand

"you'll be back soon, we will all be together again soon" I said

"don't cry when I can't be beside you, please" I said and she wiped her cheeks

"now give me that beautiful smile" I said smiling at her and she did the same, giving me that previous smile of hers