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Silhouette 🥀

Sometimes the things we see in the shadows are more than shadows

Alone......again.... I lost her. This emptiness in my heart, this is unbearable. She has a place in my heart that is irreplaceable. I walked to the balcony and stared into the darkness but there was a little moonlight coming through the leaves. It was like hope, that shines through the darkness just like the hope she gave me. A gush of wind came through the window it was swirling around taking some fallen leaves with it. The red curtains in the room swayed around. I felt her presence. Her smile, her giggles, her warm embrace that gives me relief even when the whole world was against me. I was a monster in everyone's eyes but not in hers. She was the only light in my world filled with darkness. The ones who are happy with your departure.......I will make sure to bring them agony, my love. The ones that hurt you and caused you pain..... I will drag them through hell. We were just so in love, that we didn't realize we were making memories. And these memories will keep me going. I am nothing without you. When we hold each other in the darkness, it doesn't make the darkness go away. The bad things are still out there. The nightmares still walking. When we hold each other we do not feel safe, but better. "It's alright." you whisper, "I am here, I love you." and you lie ; "I'll never leave you." For just a moment or two, the darkness does not seem so bad. You were the only one who was not afraid of the darkness I held but loved this darkness, making my dead heart, beat again. The happiness you gave me was surreal. I am craving for your love. I want you in my arms. I need you......but why did you leave me alone to swallow this pain. Your absence is killing me. Don't you see my pain ? This heart......it's beating for you, only for you. Are you testing me ? Because please don't, love. I won't be able to bear this anymore. This agonizing silence, it's eating me whole, killing me slowly but deeply. This wound that you left in my heart, it's still raw and I'll keep it raw because the only who can heal this scar is you.......only You

From the moment that I lost her, from the time a massive wall, a damp dam without an opening, as heavy as lead, was erected between us, I felt as if my life has become forever meaningless and lost. Even if my caressing gaze and the deep pleasure I took in seeing her were one-sided and unrequited before, it was only because she had not seen me. But I needed these eyes, and one look from her was enough to solve all philosophical problems and riddles of the divine. One look from her and secrets and riddles no longer had any meaning for me.There are darknesses in life and there are lights, and you are one of the lights, the light of all lights. Light thinks it travels faster than anything but it is wrong. No matter how fast light travels, it finds the darkness has always got there first and is waiting for it. Just like that I am waiting for her. The day she kissed me. She kissed the devil. Only a beautiful soul like hers would kiss the damned. There were miracles in your kisses, they were medicine to my veins.

I will do anything to bring you back, my love. I've asked my advisor for a way to bring her back to life but it was impossible. He said there was only one way for it to happen "You will have to wait for a 100 years for the love of your life, then and only then can she be reincarnated but you will have to stay loyal to her all these years to prove your eternal love for her." How can I even cheat her when the only one for me is her. I will be waiting for her even if it is for a thousands of years. I'll hold you in my heart until I can hold you in my arms. Till then I will be like a silhouette that's tricks people into thinking it's living but dead on the inside.

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