Imagines (5SOS and 1D)

Part 2 - Still In Love With My Ex (H.S)

* Y/N stands for your name *

Spilling back into the hotel, finally in the comfort of the room, away from watching eyes, I broke.

My legs finally gave way, my body wracked with the sobs I'd been holding in since I'd laid eyes on him once again.

The cracks in my heart were left open into gaping holes.

The walls I'd managed to finish building around my heart not even that long ago had been knocked down.

I'd been reminded of the love I'd lost and I was beginning to feel like the most stupid person around.

Why had I done this?

Why had I let him go?

I fell to my knees, my head falling into my hands and I cried.

I cried for the love I'd lost.

I cried for the boy I'd lost.

I broke again.

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The room was silent, like in a movie when the character is sobbing and everything around them is eerily quiet.

The only things creating movements were my two best friends, as they rushed to my side, pulling me into their arms and shutting the hotel door, blocking out the outside world.

Without even realising, I'd been moved to the bedroom and was sat on the edge of my bed, the girls sat on either side of me, their arms wrapped around my shoulders and their hands rubbing soothing circles on my back.

I could hear the faint cries coming from my open mouth, the wracking sobs that shook my body to the core, but I couldn't really focus on anything other than that.

I knew, just from seeing their lips moving, that Lizzie and Katy were speaking, probably begging me to come back to them, but of course I couldn't.

My mind kept going back to that moment, that I'd just experienced a few moments ago.

All my mind could see was his face, looking so forlorn, looking so lost, looking so broken.

And I knew that's exactly how I had been looking this past year.

"Y/N, come on girl, speak to us," Katy begged, her eyes wide with fear.

"Come back to us Y/N. Let us in, please," Lizzie cried.

I couldn't stay like this forever.

And I certainly couldn't allow the darkness to pull me back in.

I'd been there.

I'd been a shell of the person I used to be, snuffling around, not speaking or eating.

"I saw him," I croaked, pushing the words up and out of my voice box.

"Oh my god, oh my god. I am so so sorry Y/N. This is all my fault," Lizzie yelled.

She pulled me into her arms, rubbing my back and holding me tightly against her chest.

"I knew this would happen. I told you Lizzie that we should have gone somewhere else," Katy scolded.

"Hey, how was I to know he'd still be here. It's been a year for gods sake. A whole year. I didn't know he'd be here again," Lizzie yelled back, defending herself.

"Exactly, it's been a whole year since the incident. And it would only make sense that he'd come back here at the same time of the year," Katy argued.

"That doesn't even make any sense," Lizzie laughed harshly.

She stood, leaving me feeling alone, as she stared angrily back at Katy.