HIS POV
"'Cause I'm really not fine at all."
I sing the last line, and the room erupts into a round of loud applause.
I see her, watching me and I can see the uneasiness.
"Thank you," I said as the applause died down.
"I just have one more song to sing," I decided.
Her eyes watched me as I set up my guitar.
"That last song was a song written for my band. This one was one I wrote myself with the help of one of my band members. Again I'd like to dedicate this song to a girl. A girl who has broken my heart. She is my very own heartbreak girl."
I paused again and watched her reaction.
I could see the confliction on her face and I knew she was trying to hide her feelings.
"This song is called Close As Strangers, and I'm singing this now because I'm feeling this way with this girl. But I wish I didn't. I wish things were different."
I strummed the guitar, but this time kept my eyes down.
I couldn't look at her whilst I sang, I couldn't let her see how much pain I was in.
I'd managed to hurt myself whilst hurting her and I couldn't live with that guilt anymore.
I needed her to hear my voice again.
I wanted to do this days ago but I knew if I called she wouldn't be there.
This was my only way of reaching her.
The timezones were pushing us as far apart as possible.
Or so I thought.
This mistake I'd made had pushed us even farther apart than a timezone could.
But I wouldn't give up, no matter how much it hurt me.
"I feel like we're as close as strangers
Won't give up
Even though it hurts so much"
I sang those words to her making sure she heard, that she knew.
She watched me with glistening eyes, and I could see the pain she was trying to hide.
I play the chords, once again keeping my eyes down as they begin to blur and cloud over with unshed tears.
I didn't want her to see my pain.
I played the last few chords, sang the last few words and shed my last invisible tear.
"Thank you," I muttered into the microphone, as I was met with an applause.
I didn't feel that I deserved any kind of applause.
The reason I'd got up there at all was completely unbalanced.
It wasn't fair.
I stepped down from the stool, put away my guitar and escaped to the bar.
I didn't look up for her, I didn't acknowledge the people patting me on the back or shaking my hand.
I just got lost in my own thoughts.
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Imagines (5SOS and 1D)
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