HIS POV
"'Cause I'm really not fine at all."
I sing the last line, and the room erupts into a round of loud applause.
I see her, watching me and I can see the uneasiness.
"Thank you," I said as the applause died down.
"I just have one more song to sing," I decided.
Her eyes watched me as I set up my guitar.
"That last song was a song written for my band. This one was one I wrote myself with the help of one of my band members. Again I'd like to dedicate this song to a girl. A girl who has broken my heart. She is my very own heartbreak girl."
I paused again and watched her reaction.
I could see the confliction on her face and I knew she was trying to hide her feelings.
"This song is called Close As Strangers, and I'm singing this now because I'm feeling this way with this girl. But I wish I didn't. I wish things were different."
I strummed the guitar, but this time kept my eyes down.
I couldn't look at her whilst I sang, I couldn't let her see how much pain I was in.
I'd managed to hurt myself whilst hurting her and I couldn't live with that guilt anymore.
I needed her to hear my voice again.
I wanted to do this days ago but I knew if I called she wouldn't be there.
This was my only way of reaching her.
The timezones were pushing us as far apart as possible.
Or so I thought.
This mistake I'd made had pushed us even farther apart than a timezone could.
But I wouldn't give up, no matter how much it hurt me.
"I feel like we're as close as strangers
Won't give up
Even though it hurts so much"I sang those words to her making sure she heard, that she knew.
She watched me with glistening eyes, and I could see the pain she was trying to hide.
I play the chords, once again keeping my eyes down as they begin to blur and cloud over with unshed tears.
I didn't want her to see my pain.
I played the last few chords, sang the last few words and shed my last invisible tear.
"Thank you," I muttered into the microphone, as I was met with an applause.
I didn't feel that I deserved any kind of applause.
The reason I'd got up there at all was completely unbalanced.
It wasn't fair.
I stepped down from the stool, put away my guitar and escaped to the bar.
I didn't look up for her, I didn't acknowledge the people patting me on the back or shaking my hand.
I just got lost in my own thoughts.
--

YOU ARE READING
Imagines (5SOS and 1D)
FanfictionJust a bunch of random imagines with the 5SOS and 1D lads!✌