Imagines (5SOS and 1D)

Never Leave Me (C.H)

Knowing Calum had been really down since I'd come back home, made my heart break.

After touring with him for two months, I had decided that it was about time that I went home for a few weeks and spent some time with my family.

I knew he'd been very apprehensive about me leaving him, but he'd been so sweet when he'd said he wanted me to go.

I knew deep down it was killing him letting me go for a while.

But he wanted nothing more than to make me happy, even if it meant hurting him in the process.

As I lay in my bed, on the fourth night, all I could think of was Calum.

I didn't even know where he was at the moment, as I'd lost track of all the places he had yet to go and had already been.

But I knew wherever it was, it was far and the timezones were different.

He could just be waking up for all I knew, whilst I was snuggling down to sleep.

He'd made me promise though, that we were to keep contact minimal because he wanted me to spend as much time with my family as possible.

He'd said he wanted texts, every so often, but phone calls were a no no.

Of course, I'd laughed at him and told him he was being daft and that I was sure my family wouldn't mind me sneaking off to call him each night.

But he'd said he wanted me to focus solely on my family and it would give him a chance to focus solely on his career.

After hearing him say that I'd worried that this was his way of telling me I was messing up his career and was in the way.

But he'd promised me that's not at all what he meant.

He said he just meant he wanted to have some time to practice the new songs and begin the recording.

I huffed as I rolled onto my left side, having switched sides at least ten times now.

I'd failed over and over to get even a little bit comfortable.

I wasn't used to this bed, which just didn't make sense since this was my own bed.

I was just so used to my double, with Calum by my side.

I missed Calum.

I reached for my phone, pressing the little middle button which lit the screen up.

On the lock screen was a picture of Calum and I, at Michael's birthday party.

It was a sneaky picture, taken by Ashton, of Calum and I wrapped up in each other's arms, lips locked and the smiles evident on our crushed lips.

It was my favourite picture.

Seeing that picture reminded me of the promise I'd made him to not call.

But dammit, did I miss hearing his voice.

I cursed under my breath as I switched it back off and put it on the bedside table.

I pulled the covers around my body and dropped my head back on the pillow.

I had to keep that promise.

No matter how hard it was.

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Another day had passed in a blur and it had now been five days without Calum.

I didn't understand why it killed me so much to be away from him.

It wasn't like we'd broken up.

We were still together, just not together at this minute in time.