Imagines (5SOS and 1D)

About Last Night (M.C) PART 4

HIS POV

I slammed into the hotel room and headed straight for the bedrooms.

She didn't tell me what I wanted to hear, she didn't explain a thing and she didn't let me explain.

I didn't have much time left.

I was leaving again tomorrow and heading to America, meaning I'd be miles away from her.

The spaces were just getting deeper, longer, wider.

I couldn't leave without telling her.

The door cracked shut as I pushed it, making me flinch.

I didn't realise how much anger I was feeling until I heard that sound and it just made me angrier.

It ignited the fire burning inside and made me raging.

I kicked at a chair in the corner, a chucked a book across the room, and whacked the pillows against the walls until they burst.

The feathers from inside the pillows floated around the room, heaping in little clusters around me.

I roared, throwing my head back and exploding as the pain and heartache I was feeling ripped from my very soul.

I could feel my heart breaking, splitting in half and then smashing into millions of little pieces.

She had taken it, taken it in her small fists and shattered it without even knowing.

She had taken the life out of me, and every ounce of my body felt completely empty.

I dropped to my knees, the lifeless pillow clutched in my fists and I sobbed.

I sobbed for the first time but not the last.

Where did I go wrong?

I ended up losing not only the one I loved, but the best friend a guy could ask for.

I regret every thing about that night, but I don't regret how it ended.

She was special, that night was special.

I'd made one of the biggest mistakes I could and I couldn't reverse it no matter how much I wanted too.

I didn't know how long I stayed there, knelt in a pool of my own tears.

I didn't know when he came in and pulled me up, taking me to lay on the bed.

I didn't know how long he held me whilst I sobbed or how much of my bullshit he listened to.

But I owed him for it.

He was a good friend.

I wasn't.

I was no good.

I didn't deserve her.

Why did I do it?

My worst mistake.

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