Amber's POV.
Later that night I go to see Connor. I brought him some food from dinner because he didn't come down to eat with us. Upon walking in the first thing I notice is him sprawled out across the bed. Still in his day clothes and no covers.
I smile at him and slowly walk in as to keep quiet. I set the food down on the dresser close to the door and walk over to him. I gently shake him awake.
He does exactly what I expect him to do. He jumps awake and grabs my wrist in a firm grip. " It's ok Connor. It's me. I won't hurt you. " I say gently.
He blinks the sleep out of his eyes and once he realizes it really is me he releases my hand. I return my hand to his shoulder. " You missed dinner so I brought it up here for you. " I say.
His eyes widen and he reaches for the clock. Upon seeing what time it was he sighs heavily. " I'm sorry. I didn't mean to miss dinner. " he said.
" Don't worry. I knew you'd be tired after your appointment today. Get all the sleep you need. " I say.
" You're not going to ask me how it went?" He asks.
" I trust you to tell me when you're ready. If you don't tell me anything at all I'd be fine with that. You getting better is all that matters to me. " I tell him.
His look softens and he raises his hand to my cheek and gently traces his thumb over my cheekbone. " You're too good to me. " he says.
I place my hand over his. " No, I'm exactly what you need. "
He smiles and leans in connecting our lips in a kiss. When we break away I can't help the grin that appears on my face. " I love you Connor. "
I say." I love you too Amber. " he replies.
I back up and grab his food before walking back over to him. He quietly eats as I close the room door and begin to put away some of the stuff we had left out.
Finally after a few minutes he speaks. " The appointment went well today. "
I am forever curious as to what they talked about, but I would never break his trust trying to find out when he doesn't want me too. I turn and look at him. " That's a good thing then. "
He nods. " I think Fenris still has his hooks deep in me. " he muttered setting his reply plate to the side.
I tilt my head to the side in confusion. " What do you mean?"
" Pamela pointed out that the only people I listen to are those in command. I listen to them because I listened to only him and he was my Alpha. He said never to trust anyone and I..." he started but I held up a hand to stop him from talking. He goes quiet.
" Are you telling me this because you want me to know as your partner or are you telling me this because as Luna you think you have no choice but to tell me?" I ask.
He goes to say something then stops. He can't answer and that's ok. I walk over to the bed and sit down next to him. " Listen Connor. I am curious and I would love to know what's going on in that beautiful head of yours, but not in a way that could risk our relationship. If you're not ready then that's that and I will respect your decision. " I say.
He nods. " I-I'm sorry. I feel so confused. " says Connor.
My heart aches for him. I smile warmly at him. " I know honey. I'll be here for you always. If you need some time to clear your head then do what you must. " I say.
" So if I wanted to leave and be by myself for a while, in the pack grounds of course, you'd let me?" He asked.
" Of course. I'd hate that you'd be away from me, but if it helps you recover better I'll do anything and be ok with anything. " I say.
I would hate for him to leave, but if being alone and living outside for a while is what he needs then I'll support his decision. That's when I realize something.
" I just remembered Connor. I did an in depth search of these pack grounds before you came along here and I found a little cabin in the woods. If you wanted, we could fox it up for you and you can stay there until you're ready to come back? " I say.
He smiles gratefully at me. " That would be great. Can we do that?" He says.
I give him a small look. " Ok, yes. Let's do that. I want that. " he says.
" There we go. We can start fixing it up first thing tomorrow morning. Plus, Pamela can go to you for your meetings so you could do whatever you want when you want too. " I say.
" That sounds perfect. I'm sorry for having to deprecate myself. It's not you, it's just everything is to much at the moment. " says Connor.
He looks at me and I smile warmly at him again. I've never seen him act the vulnerable with me since he's gotten back. It's amazing to see how far he's come.
" It's ok Connor. You have to do what's best for you. After all, you won't be too far away. " I say even though every word I say breaks my heart. I don't want to be without him, not again.
I know he won't be far but it feels like he will be. " I'm hurting you. " says Connor.
" It's ok. It's just, after being without you for so long it almost feels like I'm losing you again. But this is different and I understand that. Don't think if it as hurting me. We're healing together in our own ways. " I say.
He nods and hugs me. I end up laying down with him and we cuddle together. " I love you Amber. Thank you for always being there for me. " says Connor.
" I love you too Connor. So much. " I breath. With that, the two of us drift off into a restless sleep.
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A/N. Hey guys. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. The next will be in Sasha's POV.
I know this chapter might not make a lot of sense, but don't worry. They'll still be together and it's not like they won't see each other ever again. Connor just needs a few days a week to himself. Until next time guys. Bye. :-)
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