Restoring The Blue Eyed Wolf.

Chapter 54.

Connor's POV.

As the music starts I feel my courage growing. I can't remember if I've ever sang a song in front of people before but I'd like to think I have.

This song I've listened to a few times since coming back from being the captive of Fenris. Amber made a playlist of songs for me to remind me that I can make it through anything and that the trials I'm facing now are just that, trials. They won't last forever.

I have also been feeling lately as if I don't deserve redemption for all that I did while working for Fenris. This song isn't just a song to say suck it Fenris, it's a song to myself and to the others going through hard times that we can make it through anything.

I need songs like this. Music is very therapeutic and I just love these songs. Once the part comes for me to sing I lean in to the microphone and start singing.

" and there are voices inside your head,
You got a voice that's says
You won't get past this one.
You won't win your freedom. " I start.

I can feel those words in my bones. Fenris is always in the back of my mind saying those words to me. Telling me that I don't deserve everything I have here, that I don't deserve to heal, but I'm proving him wrong with every step I take.

" It's like a constant war and you want to settle the score. But you're bruised and beaten and you feel defeated." I sang.

Everyone in the crowd is silent and staring up at me, latching on to my every word.

" this goes out to the heaviest heart.

Oh, to everyone that's hit their limit
It's not over yet
It's not over yet.
And even when you think you're finished
It's not over yet
It's not over yet.

Keep on fighting
Out the dark
Into the light
It's not over
Hope is rising
Never give in
Never give up
It's not over

Yet, woah
Yet, woah " I sang the chorus with all the emotion I could put into this.

I looked over at Amber to see she was also holding on to every single word I said. She's so strong and has been through so much as well.

She deserves every chance she can to heal, yet she's setting her needs aside to put mine first. She's the best mate I could have ever asked for.

" oh, game set match
It's time to put it in your last, oh
Feel like winters leaving
It's redemption season. " I sang.

I let those words soak into me. It's not only time for me to allow people to redeem me and forgive me, but it's also to like for me to work on forgiving and redeeming myself.

I need this. Everyone who's ever been through something like me or who has dealt with something they can't forgive themselves for. It's time they allow themselves some redemption and forgiveness. Forgiveness doesn't start with others. It's starts with you.

" Long live the young heart ( here we are )
Cheers to a band new start ( here we are )
We're revived and breathing
To live a life of freedom. " I continued.

Amber looked so proud. I looked away from her as I allowed the words of the song to fill me. Things are tough right now but they can only get better from here. I've already made so much progress. I've got to keep believing.

" oh, to everyone who's hit their limit
It's not over yet
It's not over yet
And even when you think you're finished
It's not over yet
It's not over yet

Keep on fighting
Out of the dark
Into the light
It's not over
Hope is rising
Never give in
Never give up
It's not over

Yet, woah
Yet, woah " I sang the chorus again.

I was making it to the bridge and allowing the emotion to fill me. As I sang I was going through memories in my mind. Good things I remember and bad things I remember too.

I've been too hard on myself and it's time for me to let go of the past and focus on the future. Good things are coming, I can feel it.

" and life is a race we run
So run til the race is won
Don't you ever give up ( here we are)
Oh no never give up ( here we are)
Life is a race we run
So run til the race is won
Don't you ever give up ( here we are )
Oh no never give up ( here we are ) "

I sang the bridge with all I had. I didn't care if I have a good singing voice or not. This is something I have needed for a while.

As I sing I can feel my head start to hurt a bit and I close my eyes to let whatever I might see come forward.

The memory that appears in front of my eyes is a good one. It's the first time Amber and I kissed. I can remember how she looked and how it felt. The sparks from our brand new mate bond and the joy on her face when it happened.

It couldn't resist the grin that came to my face and I opened my mouth to sing the last chorus.

" and oh, to everyone who's hit their limit
And even when you think you're finished
It's not over yet
Oh, to everyone who's hit their limit
It's not over yet
It's not over yet
And even when you think you're finished
It's not over yet
It's not over yet

Keep on fighting
Out of the dark
Into the light
It's not over
Hope is rising
Never give in
Never give up
It's not over

Yet, woah
Yet, woah
Yet, woah
Yet, woah. "

I finished the song and opened my eyes. People were clearly filled with determination and song people were smiling even as tears poured down their faces.

They started to clap and cheer as people rose to their feet. Amber smiled at me. She too had tears rolling down her face but she looked so happy.

People soon stopped clapping and one person blurted out a question. " How do you remain so strong after what happened to you?"

I smiled softly at them. " It gets really hard at times and I'm not usually the strongest person. I wouldn't be where I am today if it weren't for my family and friends. They are the reason I can hold my head up high and say I am strong. So for those of you who are struggling in silence, I urge you to talk to someone. It doesn't have to be a professional and it doesn't have to be family. It could be your grandma for all I know. Just don't do this alone. People need you, this world needs you. You are here for a reason so never forget that. You are loved. " I said to them all.

That got many more tears and a reaction I wasn't expecting. A teenager rushed up to me as I was stepping off the stage and gave me a hug. Without a word they ran back to their family and smiled at them.

Their parents looked grateful for my words. I made my way back over to Amber and she greeted me with a kiss and a hug. " I'm so proud of you Connor. You were amazing. " she said.

" Thank you. All of this is because of you and your determination to never give up on me. Thank you so much. " I said to her.

All she does is kiss me again before someone else takes the stage and we sit down back in our spots to talk to each other and listen to the next song that is sung.

This was a brilliant night and I can't wait for what tomorrow holds. The night is almost over so I'm going to enjoy the rest of this while I can. My special mate and I.

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A/N. Hey guys. Hope you enjoyed this chapter. I finally picked one I thought suited Connor's situation the best. I hope you liked this song. The words Connor said to the wolf who asked him how he remained strong are also for those of you out there today that are going through tough times. Don't hold it in. Let someone you trust know that you are hurting. That is the first and hardest step to accepting help. You are all so loved. I love you guys. Thank you for loving my story so much. The next chapter let me know who's POV you want to see. Until then :-)