Be My Shield

Chapter 19: It's Them

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It was time to record the video and I was nervous. I sat cross cross apple sauce and Seth was behind me texting on his phone laying on the corner of the bed. I was on the front of the bed in front of the camera not to far and not to close I was just right. I had on a pink loose fitting crop top and blue jeans. My hair was in a messy bun I remember the first time I wore it Dean called it mini bowling ball and somehow after that were ended up fighting.

"Ready?" I asked Seth and he chuckled.

"Ready? You're the one making the video" Seth exclaimed and I laughed.

"Okay just making a video on our wwe YouTube channel where everyone we'll see it and it'll be no taking it down. People will see my vulnerable side no biggie right?" I exclaimed and turned to Seth.

"I'm here for you princess" Seth encouraged and I nodded.

I took a deep breath and pressed the record button.

"Hey WWE universe it's me Maya from the Shield and in my background is Seth" I said and leaned to the side so they can see him.

"Okay so I'm here to talk about depression" I said and started playing with by thumbs.

"I'm here to let you know that you're not alone" I said taking another deep breath.

"Look depression doesn't have any shapes, sizes, skin color, religion or anything else a human may have" I explained putting a strand of hair behind my ear.

"I mean I'm African-American and I have depression" I said.

"Mines started 8 almost 9 years ago. It comes and goes" I expressed.

"It started when I was young because that's when I lost my father. It was hard for my family but my brother had to step up and become the man of the house. He was only 12" I explained.

"I miss him. He was the one who got me to start watching wrestling and look where I am today" I said and did kind of a hysterical laugh.

"My brother often had to take care of my sister and I because our Mom became a drunk. She didn't care about us then and she doesn't now" I said and did a weak smile.

"But my brother became my hero seeing everything he did for us.

He wanted me to follow my dreams and he found a way for me to train" I said and smiled at remembering it.

"Then my mother and sister always found a way to crush my dreams" I said.

"But I just felt so alone because my brother was too busy taking care of us, my sister could care less and my mother was still drinking away her problems" I informed them.

"No one was there for me and I was alone. I tried to kill myself 3 times and failed" I said my eyes becoming watery.

I felt an arm wrap around my waist and looked to see Seth with a sympathetic look before he hugged me.

"I don't care how many times that voice in your head or how many times people tell you to kill yourself you're worth something. You were put on this earth for a reason so believe in yourself" I expressed.

"I believe in you" I said looking at the camera.

"It does help when you have someone who honestly cares about you" I said and Seth's hand came and held mine.

"I care. You'll never know who you hurt" I expressed once more.

"I love you. The whole wwe roster loves you. And I'm here for you. We all are" I said and I single tear fell and Seth whipped it.