Daryl's Girl

Chapter 69

Briana dragged me over to the cars and stood in front of me with her arms crossed. "Lily, you need to calm the hell down. I'm not saying this to be against you but as your best friend."

"Briana, I've killed two people. First Shane, now Norman. What kind of person does that make me? Who's gonna be next?" I was still fuming and getting really annoyed with myself.

"Lily, don't you see that both of those times you did it to protect yourself and the group? Shane was about to kill you and Norman was going to...to...to rape you." She argued back.

I tried to see her side of things but I just couldn't. "Briana, I keep saying that this world changes people. It's changed me. I'm not the same girl I was before." I continued to get myself all worked up. "When this all started I couldn't even kill a walker because I was that insistant on not killing. Now look. I don't even care. I admit I with Shane, but Norman. I wanted to watch the light leave his eyes. You tell me that's sain."

For a moment Briana stood there shocked at what I'd just said. It was almost as if she was trying to find the right words to even try and justify my behaviour. "Lily, okay. You killed two people but that doesn't change the fact you're my best friend and you always will be. If you hadn't have done what you did, who knows what both of those men would've done." She sighed and hugged me. I didn't hug her back. "Look, just calm down and come back and sit with us. Apologise to Carol."

"It would be so much easier if I were to just leave. Look at what I've caused." I looked over at the others who looked away as they saw me turn to them. "Tyler is somewhere out there and who knows what he is doing-"

"No!" Briana interrupted. "I'm not going to let you pull away.  You know that. Tyler could be anywhere out there, or he could be dead. You don't even know if you'll find him." She argued.

"There's always that town-" I stopped when I realised what I just said. I hoped she hadn't caught onto what I'd said but it was too late.

"Wait. What town?" She questioned stepping backwards and crossing her arms again.

"Nothing." I replied trying to take back what I'd just said.

"No, Lily! What town?" She glared at me.

"Please don't say anything to anyone." I pleaded. Briana nodded her head as she saw how serious I was. "When the farm got over run, I came across a town. Wood something...I think it was Woodbury. It looked safe until I met this Governor. He had fish tanks filled with heads of humans and walkers. He had a walker locked away in a cage. I ran for my life and stole the guns and ammo. I lied saying I found them in a cabin." I sighed. I was finally starting to calm down. It was like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders.

"So that's where you got all that stuff from." She realised, almost repeating what I'd just said. I nodded my head. "Okay, I understand why you ran. I think that's what I would've done, but why would you want to go back?"

"I don't know. I wouldn't. Not with what I saw." I had to stop myself from saying any more as I didn't want Briana finding out about Daryl's brother. I wanted to tell him myself but I just couldn't after what happened.

"Why don't you want to tell the others?" Briana gulped.

"I just thought that if no one knew about the town then it wouldn't be a problem. With what I know about it, we'd have a fight or a war on our hands. We can fend for ourself out here and we don't need the added pressure. It wasn't safe and I don't want it ending up like the barn. If no one knows. Nothing will change." I noted.

"Fair enough. I heard about that." She nodded.

Just as she finished and was about to say something else, Rick called her over. "Briana!"