𝙇𝙖𝙨𝙩 𝙒𝙖𝙧𝙢 𝘽𝙤𝙙𝙮 : ̗̀➛ 𝙙.𝙙

94

"I need a knife." Del stared down at her drink. Sherry stared at her intently.

"You aren't going to.. Are you going to try to kill him?" Sherry whispered.

"What choice do we have, Sherry? I mean... now he has my sister against me... Theres too many people.."

"Even if it worked and you did it... The rest will kill you, and your sister and brother and Daryl and... your daughter.... There is no way around it, Delilah. The only way out is through."

Del tucked her lips, taking a swig of her drink. It burned going down. She knew she had no choice. There was nothing she could do.

"You know they gave Daryl a picture of Glenns smashed in head... They made him sit in that cell with nothing but a picture of our dead friend. I have it.. I can't throw it away. I feel like I need to be punished for what I did..."

Sherry handed her a cigarette, leaning forward on the step.

"What... What happened out there, Del?"

Del took a long drag, almost laughing to herself. It was all stupid, she was so fucking stupid.

"I have a best friend, Maggie. She was my best friend before all this, since we were little. She is the most amazing woman I know. She's the one pregnant, the one with Glenns baby... The night... of the lineup. I had just watched him kill Abraham,.. Abraham saved my life.. Anyway, I uh... I snapped. He walked by Maggie, pointed the bat at her... It just, set me off. I attacked him. I was so close, Sherry. I got the bat from him... If I would just have done it then... He threw me and uhm... Daryl punched him... then he killed Glenn, to send a message I guess... I... I have to figure something out, Sherry."

She sat in silence. Del was tired of the quietness. It consumed her.

"Well.. All I have to say is... Theres only one way to not be leverage, Delilah."

And she walked away. And Del knew what she meant. She knew the only way for it to work was only for Del to not be around to be leverage.

...

Del bit her fingernails down to nubs, trying to keep herself from picking up the drink. She could feel the habit coming back, could feel the addiction slipping back into her life. It was the only thing that made her warm anymore.

"You're not drinking again, are you?" Kays voice made her jump.

"Jesus, knock next time." Del pushed the glass away from her.

"The door was open." Kay nudged the door shut, sitting on Dels bed. They stared at each other for a while, what was there to say?

"What?" Del broke the eye contact.

"Do you remember when we saw each other at the prison?"

Del scoffed, biting at her nails.

"How could I not?"

"I remember, seeing your face. Seeing Jakes. God, Jake looked so much older in that short amount of time-"

"He looks even older now, Kay. He is there, Alexandria, with my baby. With Maggie-"

"Dont start trying to get me on your side-"

"YOU SHOULD BE ON MY SIDE, GOD DAMNIT!"

Kay went silent, her eyes wide, but full of guilt. Del could see it. She felt her chest become hot as she stood.

"YOU... you fucking left."

"And for good reason, huh?! Look at how everything went to shit without me! I told you Rick couldn't handle it-"

"RICK?! Rick has gave his whole goddamn life for that group, and we were safe, Kay. FUCK WE WERE SAFE! You didnt leave Rick, or the group, You left ME and you left JAKE."

"You are delusional-"

"AND YOU ARE A COWARD! You are such a coward! I saved you! I saved Jake! I did that! Not you! I survived without walking away out of fear! I did fucking everything, Kay! EVERYTHING! I'm not fucking scared of your judgement anymore because IT DOESN'T MEAN SHIT COMING FROM A COWARD!.... You know... you know I thought you were dead, and I dreamed about seeing you again, hoping you would be changed, but you are still a fucking pussy, Kay."

Kay stared at Del intently, her lips forming into a tight frown. She was fighting away tears.

"I love you, Del." She stood, making her way to the door.

"I'm going to kill him, you know."

Kay stopped, her hand on the door handle, but she didn't look back.

"I know, Del. I know you are." And with that she shut the door behind her harshly.