Elysian's Monogatari

Chapter 86: Kicked Out

"Gaaaaaaah!?/Woah?" Jun and Ren said respectively. "Damnit! They seriously kicked us out, driving us away as if we're some kind of stray dog...! GODDAMN! GODDAMN! GODDAMN! Damn it what a convenient word! GODDAMN!" Jun said angrily. "Jun-kun..." Ren said.

As Tatsumi-senpai suggested by cursing God like this, by refraining from directing curses against others it might lead to a 'kind world where no one gets hurts. In this world full of injustice instead of cursing living people it'd be better to curse the gods or fate. That way, yeah, no one gets hurt.

But let's face it. That's just idealism. Tatsumi-senpai, the ones we are mad at are not some gods existing who knows where. Rather it's always the people around us who bear the brunt of our anger. We want to hurt them, make them frustrated, or even want then wiped out once and for all. In the end that's what we really think. So living in an ideal way as Tatsumi-senpai would want us to isn't feasible.

Not to mention recently Nii-san seems to get a little bit more distant. I don't know if it's because of HiMERU or because Tatsumi-senpai is away at the moment but whenever I try to ask him he always managed to dodge the question. Nii-san...just what are you hiding from me this time...? He then thought with a sigh.

"Ren-kun? What are you spacing out for?" Jun said. "Eh? Ah it's nothing. Was thinking about what happened just now. How Nii-san got called to stay behind by HiMERU and how we, as non-honored students, can't even do anything when we try to fight back. Honestly it's quite annoying." Ren said with a sigh as Jun says nothing while looking at Ren.

...True. Ren-kun is right. We're just ordinary mortals, unable to shake off the impurities of the material world and live a perfect life. Even someone as saintly as Kazehaya-san is no exception. He's only human too. That's why it wasn't surprising when he fell I'll after taking on a ridiculous amount of work all by himself.

Ren-kun, Shiro-senpai and I offered to help Kazehaya-san several times but he turned me down for reasons I couldn't understand. We were keeping our distance from the group in the Catacombe led by him because for me I found them creepy.

But there must have been many 'devotees' who sincerely had faith in and followed Kazehaya-san in a way that I couldn't compare to. But none of us stepped forward to save him. Of course I think they all wanted to help at one time, because everyone loved him, the person who made up for our shortcomings.

The one who used up his life force to give us what we wanted, without expecting anything in return. We loved him, relied on him and respected him. So everyone must have tried to help Kazehaya-san. Everyone was willing to take over his work or to do whatever was necessary to support him.

But they failed to convince him. Kazehaya-san seemed to refuse that kind of help. Even those who tried to help him against his will had all failed. Kazehaya-san was undoubtedly the top idol and Reimei Academy. The burden he carried on those fragile shoulders was too heavy for anyone else to bear.

I've been thinking, what if Kazehaya-san's devotees took on his work so he could get some rest. No I don't think it'll would out well. They might not be able to pull it off. After all 'Kazehaya Tatsumi' isn't just one idol but a team with Kazehaya-san leading the charge.

It has grown into a formidable, monstrous entity through unity. If a small part of this team tried to do tasks the whole 'Kazehaya Tatsumi' handles they'd likely mess up. They wouldn't meet expectations. They might not have the ability to properly complete those tasks which would cause a series of failures.

And those failures could seriously damage the reputation of 'Kazehaya Tatsumi'. When Kazehaya-san was in charge everything ran smoothly. But ever since he got sick it's like everything's gone off the rails.

Nothing seems to be going right. And the 'devotees' of Kazehaya-san have started to shift the blame onto the one they're supposed to love because they don't want to get hurt. They argue it wasn't an individual's failure but rather a failure of 'Kazehaya Tatsumi' as a whole.

By saying that they can protect their self-esteem. They have received so much help from Kazehaya-san until now. Yet they choose to ignore that and point fingers at him. Just like that they're corrupted. I didn't feel comfortable with them in the first place but now I don't even want to breathe the same air as them.

They gather in the dim underground speaking I'll of Kazehaya-san all the time. They go on with their day with relieved and carefree smiles acting as if nothing is wrong. Ah it must be so easy to shift all the burden onto someone else! But the one bearing it all, Kazehaya-san, is just human!

He's not a god. He's human just like the rest of us. Because he's human he gets hurt. And when hurt too deeply he breaks. That's why Kazehaya-san ended up in the hospital! He's hurt BOTH physically and mentally! Why can't everyone realize something as simple as that? How could they forget about that? Jun thought.