Risk It All (COMPLETED)

Part 49: i don't like it that i can hardly see you anymore

Brad got back in the pool and I stayed sitting on the side dangling my feet in the water, occasionally I would look over at Rebekah but she was mostly kissing Connor. She didn't look at me once and I really don't know what I have done wrong, I always ask her is she wants to go out with me or do something with me but recently she has just been wanting to spend time with Connor, It's like she doesn't want to know me anymore. first Hannah and now Rebekah, what if one day I loose Brad as well...

"Hey, Chloe! Do you wanna come in?" Brad asked and snapped me out of my thoughts. "Erm... No thanks." I said and looked back down at the water by my feet. Brad then swum over to me and jumped up to give me a kiss, he pulled away and got back in the water. "What's up?" Brad asked. "Nothing." I said and sighed. "Please cheer up, I don't like it when you are upset." Brad said and I gave him a fake smile. "Baby." He said and I looked at him. "Come in the pool with me and I will cheer you up." Brad said. "I don't wanna get my swimming costume on." I said. "Why?" Brad asked. "You know I don't like wearing my costume, it makes me feel self conscious." I said. "But we had the conversation that you have no need to be self conscious." Brad said. "I know but sometimes I don't believe everything that everyone tells me." I said. "You don't know how beautiful you really are, do you?" Brad said. "I'm not having this conversation again Brad, I have told you what I think of myself." I said.

"Do you want me to leave you alone?" Brad asked. "No! I don't want you to leave me!" I said, I was now getting upset because I didn't want Brad to leave me for half the night. I find it hard to sleep as it is and I'm not having the best of times with Rebekah right now, I miss Jesse and I kind of just want to go home. "I'm sorry but I have to go tonight." Brad said, I then stood up and walked off into the house. I ran up the 2 flights of stairs and then locked myself in my room, I am just going to miss him so much and I hate the fact that we always have a time limit. I know Brad said that we have got the whole of next week together but I just didn't expect my relationship with him to be like this, I love him and I always have a time limit on how long I can spend with him before he gets pulled away from me.

"Chloe!" I heard Brad call my name and he knocked on my door. "Chloe?" He said again and tried to open my door, he found out that it was locked and he was staring to get worried. "Chloe!" Brad said and started to bash against the door. "Brad, I'm fine. Go away." I said. "Please come out?" Brad said. "No, you have to go in a minute so there is no point. I don't want my heart broken anymore." I said and started crying. "Baby, please. I just want to talk to you." Brad said. "You need to go." I said. "In half an hour yeah but not now." Brad said and he started to try and open the door again, he tried for a while but he found out that there is no way to open it from the outside so he stopped. "Chloe, please explain to me why you are so upset?" Brad said. "You know why, I have already told you everything." I said and Brad sighed, I heard him put his back to the door and slide down until he was sitting down. "Please Chloe, I have half an hour left and I want to spend that half an hour with you." Brad said.

I didn't say anything and Brad sighed again. "I'm sorry." He said and then it sounded like he got up and walked back downstairs, I laid back on my bed and looked out the window with tears pouring down my cheeks. I do love Brad so much but I hate being on a time limit all the time, he is my boyfriend and I should be able to spend every second with him but no, I have to be put on a stupid time limit. I am thinking about just getting on a plane and flying home, I miss Jesse and it's not helping Brad if I'm here. I'm putting him off of wanting to go to the concerts and I'm making him upset, I don't want to do that so what's the point in being here? I don't even really want to go to that party tomorrow, I bet all of those Celebs will have boyfriends and girlfriends and I bet all the girls will look better than me. They always do.

I spent the next 4 hours laying on my bed and looking out the window while crying and thinking, I decided not to go back home but I have to give Brad some more space. He isn't getting any work done and soon he has got to start recording songs for the new album, if I am distracting him then he will never get anything done. It's hard enough getting him to go to a concert let alone go and sit in a room for 5 hours writing music.