Risk It All (COMPLETED)

Part 74: the self confidence challange...

I walked into the girls room to see Rebekah sitting on her bed, she smiled at me as I sat on hers. "Hey." She said and I smiled at her. "Hi." I replied. "What have you been up to?" Rebekah asked. "Not much, just spending time with my boyfriend." I said and Rebekah laughed. "You can just say Brad." She explained. "I know but I like calling him my boyfriend, even though we have only been going out for half a year it still hasn't quite sunk in that he is my boyfriend." I said. "Aaawww, well you two are adorable together. It's like you were meant to be." Rebekah said and I blushed. "Thanks." I replied. "Where is this memories box then?" Rebekah asked, I stood up and opened my wardrobe to pull out the box that was sitting right at the back. "Here." I said and sat back down.

It was basically a shoe box with the words 'Chloe And Bekkie, Best Friends Forever' written on it. We were only young when we started this but we stopped when we left senior school, we just ran out of time to do it. Rebekah blew the dust off of it and I giggled. "Needs a bit of a clean." I said and she nodded, we opened it and we both smiled when we saw what was in it. Rebekah pulled out all of the friendship notes we used to write to each other when we were little, one of them said 'dear Chloe, thank you for being my best friend ever and I hope one day our plan to go to America comes true! Xxx' Rebekah wrote that when she was 9 years old. "It's funny how we have now been to America." She said and I nodded. "Yeah, our dream has half come true. We aren't actually living there but I like my life here." I explained and Rebekah nodded.

I then pulled out a picture of us when we were younger and tears filled my eyes. "I can't believe how young we both were!" I said and Rebekah giggled, she hugged me and I hugged her back. "Things are better now." Rebekah said and I nodded. "A lot better..." I said and just at that moment Brad walked into the room, he laid sideways on my bed and winked at me. "Hi..." I said confused and giggled at him. "Hey baby, how long are you going to be?" He asked. "I'm not sure, I'm spending time with my friend. There is no time limit." I said. "What's that?" Brad asked and pointed to the box. "Just a memory box that me and Rebekah made when we were younger." I explained and passed him the photo of us when we were younger. "Chloe! You look so skinny and depressed!" Brad said and then looked up at me in shock. "I know... I was." I said. "Why?" Brad asked. "Just being in care I guess." I said and Brad nodded, he passed the photo back to me and me and Rebekah carried on looking through the box.

Once we were done we put it all away, Brad walked out of the room about half an hour ago because he got bored. I put the stuff back in the wardrobe and sat on my bed so I was facing Rebekah. "So." She said and I smiled. "So." I said back to her. "I heard that you wrote a song for Brad?" She said. "Yeah, ages ago! But I only wrote the chorus and it isn't very good." I said. "I'm sure it is! Play it for me?" Rebekah asked. "No! I'm not going to embarrass myself in front of my friend." I said. "Please?" She asked. "I don't even have a guitar." I said. "Use Brad's." Rebekah said. "I can't just take his guitar and use it, it means a lot to him because it was his first guitar and I don't want to break it." I said. "Ask him then?" Rebekah said. "Really?" I said and Rebekah nodded. "I really wanna hear it." She said and I went all embarrassed. "Fine." I said, I got up and walked in to the boys apartment.

"Brad!" I called and he came running down the stairs with Jesse following him. "Yeah?" Brad said while standing on the bottom step, I giggled at the dog and Brad. "Can I use your guitar?" I asked. "Yeah, thanks for asking me first." Brad said, he walked over to me and held my hands. "I would always ask you first, I would never just go ahead and use something that isn't mine." I said and Brad smiled. "I love you." He said and then lightly kissed me. "I love you too." I said in the kiss, Brad pulled me closer to him and carried on kissing me. "Chloe! I only wanted you to get the guitar!" Rebekah said and giggled, I pulled away from Brad and turned to see Rebekah standing in the doorway. "Sorry. I got distracted." I said and then walked away from Brad. "Baby." Brad said and I turned to face him. "I wanna spend some more time with you tonight." He said, I looked at Rebekah and then back at Brad. How can I decide who to go with?!

"Chloe, I was spending time with you first?" Rebekah said. "But I love you." Brad said, I really couldn't make up my mind. "Come and play the song?" Rebekah asked. "Brad, come with me?" I said, he held my hand and then I walked over to Rebekah. "Bekkie, come with me." I said and she followed me up the stairs with Brad, I got Brad's guitar and we all sat on the bed. "I will spend time with both of you because I hate having to choose who to spend time with, I wanna spend time with both of you." I said and they both nodded. "What are you doing with my guitar then?" Brad asked. "I am going to show Rebekah the song I wrote for you." I said and Brad nodded.

I started to strum the guitar and after a while I sang the words:

I look deep in your eyes and get lost in California
Everything changes when I'm here with you
I wish you were mine but you belong to another
I see you with her on the streets
Oh how I wish that could be
Me and you...

Rebekah's eyes were wide open and her mouth was also wide open as well. "That was amazing Chloe!" Rebekah said and I smiled a bit. "Thanks." I said and gave the guitar back to Brad, he then started to strum the guitar and show off on it. "Show off..." I said. "Huh?" Brad asked. "I just tried my best to play a song that I wrote and then you go and do that? I know it was basic and I know I'm not very good but come on? Give me my moment?" I explained. "Sorry baby, I didn't mean to. I was just playing the guitar, you did amazing! Can you teach me how to play it?" Brad asked. "You already know." I said. "No I don't." Brad replied. "You will find it too easy..." I said. "Guys! Just stop?" Rebekah said and we both looked at her. "What?" Brad asked. "Your both arguing all the time! Brad, stop showing off in front of your girlfriend because she has worked hard to make that part of the song. Of course you know how to play it because you have seen her play the chords." Rebekah said.

"I'm not showing off? Im just playing the guitar." Brad said and then gave the guitar back to me. "Why did you give it to me?" I asked. "Play something?" Brad asked. "I can't play anything else." I said. "I'm sure you can." Brad said. "I can't!" I said, Brad sat behind me and held my hand in the position of different chords. He then made me strum the guitar in different patterns and I was really confused. "What are you doing?" I asked. "Teaching you how to play Can We Dance." Brad said, he continued to help me hold the chords and then after a while he sat back in front of me. "Play the tune I just taught you." Brad said. "I can't do that! I have forgotten it. I can't learn it as fast as you can." I said. "Just try? For me?" Brad asked, I sighed and then started to strum the guitar. I played the first few chords in the wrong order and then I got the strumming pattern wrong. "See? I failed." I said and put the guitar on the bed.

"Chloe, your not a failure. Stop putting yourself down all of the time? It hurts me to see you do that and you have no self confidence, you can do this because you just did it when I was sitting behind you. I believe in you, I'm sure Rebekah does as well. So why can't you just have a bit more confidence? That is what I am trying to prove here, that you can do things if you put your mind to it and that you need to have more confidence. Your song was amazing and I can see potential in you, so I am trying to help you out but you just point blank refuse to even try." Brad said, I stared at him with my mouth open a bit and then looked at Rebekah. "It's true Chloe, you have been the same your whole life. I think your past life has made you have no self confidence but you can overcome that, we all believe that you can play this song so come on! Just do it because we know you can, if you succeed then that means that you would have gained some self confidence." Rebekah said.

"I can't though... I have tried and I failed..." I said and looked at the guitar. "How about I set you a challenge? I will teach you all day tomorrow how to play Can We Dance and then in the evening you will perform it to everyone. If you succeed then you will have gained a bit of self confidence, I know you can do it Chloe! And you will get a prize from me if you do it." Brad said and winked, I really do want to be able to do it and I really do want to have self confidence but I just always put myself down and I can't help it. Rebekah is right when she said that my past life has had an affect on it but maybe now I do need to change?