Risk It All (COMPLETED)

Part 69: my song

Me and Brad spent the rest of the day relaxing and just having a general conversation, it is now the evening and Brad has to go to his concert. "But I don't want you to go!" I pleaded, I do this every time he has to go to a concert but nothing changes. "I don't want to go either but I have to, I can't just not turn up." Brad said, I sighed and sat on the bed. "Don't do this again Chloe, we have this conversation every night and the answer is always the same. When I come back then you will have the whole night with me and when we get back to the UK you will have all the time in the world with me." Brad said. "I understand that but what am I meant to do while your not here? Everyday for the past 10 weeks I have had nothing to do all evening while you have been at your concerts." I said. "I know and I'm sorry but I only have 4 more shows left to do!" Brad said, I walked out of his room and downstairs.

"Chloe." Brad said but I kept on walking, I walked out in to the garden and sat on one of the deck chairs. "Ok, if your going to be like this then I am just going to go. See you later." Brad said, this happens everyday now and I know I should learn to just let him go but I just can't. I hate having to let him go and stand in front of a thousand screaming girls everyday but I have to do it. I stood up and walked back indoors to see the boys all saying goodbye to the girls and getting their shoes on. "But I don't want you to go again." Rebekah said to Connor. "I know baby but I have to go." Connor said and gave her a kiss, Brad saw me and waved his hand as if he was asking me to come over but I shook my head and sat on the sofa. I heard my phone vibrate in my pocket and I took it out to read the message.

1 message from Brad:
Please come over? I'm sorry I argued with you. I'm annoyed that I have to go as well and I won't be able to concentrate while I am performing if I'm upset, I do love you. A lot...... Xxxxxxxx 😘💖

I looked over to Brad and he half smiled back at me, I walked over to him and looked down at the floor. "I hate it when we argue..." Brad said and I nodded while looking at the floor. "I do love you Chloe, I know we argue but when we do it doesn't feel right. I love you so much and I hope you know that." Brad said, he held my hands and I looked up at him. "I love you too." I said quietly and Brad kissed my cheek. "Can I have a proper kiss?" I quietly asked and then looked down at the floor again. "Of course you can." Brad said and lifted my chin up so I was looking at him again, he kissed me forcefully and after a while he pulled away. "Only 4 more shows Chloe, then we can go home and be with Jesse again." Brad said and I nodded.

"Boys! Come on!" Waddy shouted from the van outside and I looked at Brad. "Bye." Brad said and I smiled a bit. "Can I wear your hoodie?" I asked and Brad nodded. "You can wear any of my stuff, I don't mind." Brad said and kissed me again. "I love you." I said and then pulled away. "I love you too." Brad said, he gave me one last hug and then all the boys walked outside and got into the van. Brad opened his window and winked at me. "I love you." Brad mouthed and I smiled at him. The van then drove off and I went and sat in the living room while everyone else waved goodbye to their boyfriends, everyone sat down with me on the sofa and we all stared in to space. "I'm gonna go upstairs." I said and then walked upstairs, I sat on Brad's bed and then looked around his room.

His first guitar was standing up on the guitar stand in the corner of his room, there was a pile of clothes on his floor so I put them in his draws and tidied up his room a bit because I am bored. I then looked at his guitar again and I had the temptation to play on it, but what if I break it? Brad said I can wear anything I wanted to but he didn't say anything about his guitar so maybe I should leave it? Should I text him and ask? I kept on asking myself questions and in the end I just got my phone out.

1 message to Brad:
Hey baby, I just tidied your room up for you because it was a mess. Do you mind if I play on your guitar? I don't mind if you don't want me to because knowing me I might break it. Love you!! Xxxxx 😘