Risk It All (COMPLETED)

Part 91: going mental

We both walked downstairs and I decided to make Brad breakfast. "Baby, you don't have to." He said, I sat him down on the high stool and leaned over the kitchen counter to kiss him. "I want to make you a special birthday breakfast. What do you want?" I asked. "I don't know." He said and I bit my lip. "Bradley, I know you know what you want. So what do you want?" I asked. "Bacon sandwich?" He asked and I smiled. "Of course baby." I said and gave him another quick kiss on the lips, I got the bacon out of the fridge and then switched on the hob. He seemed to like staring at me when I have a crop top on and my shorts, I do still feel a little bit self conscious but I'm gonna have to get over that.

Brad started playing with a birthday balloon that was attached to his chair and I giggled at him. "Big baby." I said and he winked. "Love you." He said and I smiled at him, after a while the bacon was cooked and I made him a sandwich. I put the extra bacon on a plate in front of him and sat opposite him on a high stool. "Aren't you having one?" He asked. "Nah, I'm not hungry." I said. "I thought you were going to start eating more?" He said and I sighed. "There isn't enough bacon anyway." I said. "You can use this extra bacon." Brad said. "But that's yours." I said as he got up to make my sandwich for me. "Brad, I don't need one. Please just sit down?" I asked but he wouldn't stop making a sandwich. "I can do it myself, please just sit down and let me do it?" I said but he wasn't listening. "Brad!" I shouted and tears filled my eyes, he looked at me and then looked very confused. "Please?" I said he just stared at me so I ran off out of the door, I just need some time away. This is meant to be his day and I wanted to do everything for him for once, he always does everything for me and today I was meant to do everything for him. He isn't listening to me and I really just wanted this to be his day.

"Chloe!" I heard Brad say from behind me and I stopped just as I was about to walk outside. "I don't understand, I was just making you a sandwich..." He said and I wiped the tears away from my eyes. "This is meant to be your day and I just want to do something for you for once... Your always doing everything for me and I know you are only trying to be helpful so I wanted to do something for you for once. I sometimes wish you wouldn't take over as much as you do because I am capable of doing things for myself, I know your only trying to look out for me but I'm not a baby Brad." I said and he just stared at me. "Go and enjoy your birthday... I'm gonna go and leave you too it." I said and started walking again. "Chloe!" He said but this time I didn't stop. "I'm sorry ok, can we please not argue over a bacon sandwich?" Brad said and he started laughing at himself because he thought what he just said was funny, I stopped but didn't face him. I just want everything to go the way I planned it, this is why I don't bother doing anything for anyone. "You know what, I think you will be better off without me..." I said as the tears kept on falling. "What?" He said and I went to take the promise ring off but he stopped me. "Woah, Chloe. Don't do this, I love you and I don't want to loose you. Especially on my birthday!" Brad said. "I'm sure you will find someone better..." I said and slipped it down my finger but Brad stopped me from taking it off. "Think about what you are doing... I don't want to loose you Chloe." Brad said and kissed me but I pushed him away. "No, I know your not happy with me..." I said and he looked hurt. "But baby, we both love each other. I don't want to loose you, I can't find anyone better because your the most beautiful girl that I have ever met..." Brad said and I looked at the floor, he put the ring on my finger properly and then lifted my chin up. "Let's just go back." Brad said, he took my hand and walked me back up to the apartment.

I can't be bothered to fight and argue anymore, I'm just gonna do what everyone wants me to do now and then there will be no problems. If Brad wants to go further than making out then I will do it, if Sophie wants me to have kids then I will do it, if Brad doesn't like the party then I will end it, if Brad decides he doesn't want me anymore then I will walk away. I am going to do what everyone asks me to do now because there is no point in trying anymore, I try so hard and nothing comes out of it.