Demon [Jai Brooks]

Chapter 94

Lillys Pov:

As Jai left me in the bathroom I looked at my reflection through the mirror and looked at all my scars 

"Was it really worth hurting myself.."

"Of course it was now you've lost weight, you're actually healthy and even better, your closer to dying"

"Wh-What do you mean im closer to dying"

"Look at you, your depressed,sad,suicidal, and i think your anorexic from the starvation, and look at yourself, you skin is aaall ripped up" she finished off by popping the p

I know Jai told me to call him every time Purrah comes but as threatening as she is I actually feel comfort when she talks to me

"L-listen can you taunt me another time, but right now I have to get dressed and go to Jai"

In seconds she disappeared without another word. I deeply sighed in relief and quickly put on my over sized black t-shirt and noticed that Jai had forgotten to get me some pants so I quickly wrapped the towel around me and ran out to my room 

When I entered expecting the room to be filled with dust and shattered glass with clothes everywhere, I got in to a clean,stainless room

"Lilly.. i uh decided to clean up a bit"

"th-thanks, you didn't have to"

"I know I just wanted to say sorry somehow but this is nothing"

"Sorry for what" I asked

"...Leaving you" he said in a low voice

"O-oh.. Its ok.. I-Im used to people leaving me, I wasn't affected by it" I lied with a fake laugh

He looked up at me with sad eyes and said

"Lilly.. I can see it in your eyes. The way you look at me now was never the way you used to look at me"

"How do I look at you now" I confusingly asked

"Instead of love,shock,inspiration and god knows what else.. you know look at me with-with hate,disgust an-and.." a tear slipped down his face followed by a couple more 

"I-I dont hate you" I whispered while walking up closer to him 

He quickly wiped the tears away and backed up a little

"I-I know you'll never fall in love with me like you did before..."

"I never stopped loving you in the first place... Yes I might have sai-said I hated you when I found out you ki-ki-.. but it was only in the heat of the moment"

"No it wasn't Lilly"

"Y-yes it was" I quickly fought back

"Listen if you dont want me here just say something, cause if you need time i'll give it to you"

"J-Jai no.. please dont leave me (sobbing) you cant leave me all alone with her (Purrah)  showing up"

"I dont wanna leave you either but I feel like you need time to think about it.. Lilly your confused, your emotions have been balled up into one thing... that one thing is sadness. But now that im here I know you're trying to look and act happy but you cant.. you just cant, your body isn't letting you"

"If-If you try to leave me i'll... i'll kill myself" I slowly looked up at him with my blurry vision

His eyes went wide and he ran up to me while quickly engulfing me into a hug

"I-I cant live another day without you... if you kill yourself i'll go crazy and I-I'll probably kill myself for good" he choked out 

I quickly looked up at him and wiped his tears away and said