Guarded

interview

"So you wrote these songs when you were broken" she asked "yes my dad broke me i was completely broken and  I wanted to die"  i explained "so this album is about abuse" she asked

"yes my dad physically mentally and socially Abused me" i told her "so physically you mean hit you and beat you" she questioned "i mean he would beat me til I bled he hit me and he raped me" i told her

"He raped you" she was shocked  "yep it was when I was 14 im 17 now and I still remember it i don't wanna remember it but it's something that will haunt me the rest of my life" i explained to her

"so this album is your story" she asked i nodded "i ask everyone this are you dating anyone" she asked "yes" i told her "is it Justin Bieber" she asked "no its not" i lied " justin is my best friend he was the first person I opened up to and told him what I was going through and maybe one day will come together and date but no its not him" i continued

"Mhm you're blushing"  she questioned "no i love justin he makes me happy and it's good to have someone by my side because he's the first person that saw me in pain and so I know he cares about me" I explained

....after Comercial....

"At justins concert you sang your song when she cries then you  made a speech lets take a look at what you said" she says then they play the video

"okay before I give the microphone back to justin i wanna say something....if you ever feel like you don't matter if you ever feel worthless and useless sometimes  alone....I'm gonna tell you this....you are not alone you do matter you are worth something and you are not useless...

.if you ever think that no one cares....well your wrong.... i care is what someone said to me when I was in pain justin it was justin who said he cared and cares about each and every one of you my dad broke me but if you are broken you do not have to stay broken and next time you say no one cares

that's not true i care justin your idol cares and everyone in this arena cares because you do matter thank you" the video ended

"That is amazing you empowered young teenagers you might off been feeling down at justins concert you told them that they do matter" she explained 

"When we come back alex is gonna sing her hit song concrete angel" she told the audience they went to commercial

....after commercial.....

"Were back with alex stone with concrete angel" ellen announced the stage opened the music started

....

i started singing

"She walks to school with the lunch
She packed
Nobody knows what she's
Holdin' back
Wearin' the same dress
She wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with linen
And lace

The teacher wonders but she
Doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain
Behind the mask
Bearing the burden
Of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was
Never born

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In her world that she can rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where
She's loved
Concrete angel

Somebody cries in the middle
Of the night
The neighbors hear, but they turn
Out the lights
A fragile soul caught in the hands
Of fate
When morning comes
It'll be too late

.....

Through the wind and the rain
She stands hard as a stone
In her world that she can rise above
But her dreams give her wings
And she flies to a place where
She's loved
Concrete angel" i sang The song was over everyone clapped

.... I walked back stage  and went home i face timed justin

2 months later  I've been in more photoshoots i'm excited because I get to model victoria's secret pink stuff and they sent me boxes of there pink  collection they just finished taking pictures of me i was in my dressing room where (pic above) when someone knocks on the door "who is it" i ask