Guarded

Home life

and changed i took my contacts out and put my glasses on and walked out of the bedroom Justin and Alfredo come on and handed me a scrap book "a dancer gave me this" justin says it was all pictures and places from tour i almost cried

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Next week im wearing pic above Saturday afternoon I took a break from the world and emptied out a big room and put everything from all my tours there including the bed i put everything fans iron dancers have given me in a corner organized on a table and letters from fans on the wall i put all the outfits

from  shout out to my ex on a garment rack i had installed for me and put a label on it and I did the same thing for the first tour then put them along a wall i put hair and make up and nail stuff in a storage bin and labeled it Shout out to my ex tour
makeup and hair i did the same thing for both tours

I continued to do that for the microphones and the ear monitors except I put the ear monitors in there own tiny bin before I put them in the big one

After I was done organizing everything I went to my room I cleaned the bathrooms and bedrooms i washed the all the sheets and my clothes and

folded them and put them away i scrubbed the counter top i moped the floors i ran the sweeper i cleaned my fridge out and threw stuff away

3 hours later I just got done with everything I even cleaned my car out and now there is a knock on the door i answered it and it was Justin I let him

in and shut the door hey what are you doing here" i asked him "i'm board hang out with me" he confessed "go hang out with your girlfriend" I

snapped "what are you talking about" he asked "that girl you were on top of in your car yeah I saw that" I told him "your mad at me" he asked "no I'm mad at the garbage man. Yes I'm mad at you" I told him

"I was drunk I'm sorry but why are you mad" he asked "because I" I stopped "tell me" he bugged me

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"Just tell me" he said for the 20th time "BECAUSE I STILL LOVE YOU IDIOT" I snapped he jumped "I'm still in love with you and you flirted and fucked her of course I'm mad" I told him "but you said you hated me" he was

confused "okay well I lied.. I wanted the tour to stop because I didn't feel the same way when I started" I told him "and how did you feel"

"when I first started the tour I was angry at you  but then I remembered all the things we went through together it's always been you and I then Austin came along and

  I thought I was happy with him but Something was missing and that something was you I never stopped loving you Yael told me the way you still look at him you'll know if you still love him

well the way I looked at you was different from the way I looked at Austin even on Austin and I's first date I thought about you but I'm scared that you'll hurt me again" I told him "the way I look at it is you aren't hurt anymore or you never were" he told me "what" I asked "because after everything I put you through after all times we fought and argued and we're

bashed by the media you still love me you still look at me like I'm your world and you still want me near you  and I still treat you like a princess I could of

been with that Slut but I chose to come over here and I didn't fuck her" he explained to me coming closer he roughly and passionately pressed his lips against mine and deepened the kiss then pulled away

"yes i will hang out with you" i told him and kissed him passionately then deepened the kiss then licked my bottom lip for entrance I excepted and opened my mouth he moved his tongue around my mouth we made out for awhile then he pulled his shirt off  i pulled away