Iceland's Diary: It Began In Summer

Monday, February 27

Dear Diary:

I've done some thinking recently... (Yeah,  I can think.  It's surprising)

Even though many years have past,  the age gap between me and the Nordics doesn't shrink.  I'm still the small one...

"Ayyyy y u such a whiney bitch all of a sudden??!?!" is probably what you're thinking right now

Truth is,  I always think of this,  and since this diary is for narrating my whole life,  I thought I should include some of my thoughts as well,  since they form part of me and my everyday life

I doubt they don't see me as the useless little shit I was back when I was weaker,  even though I've grown and changed a lot.  I mean... they still treat me like it

Outside this diary,  even if you have a hard time believing it,  I try to act as mature and grown up as possible. Yes... the stupidity contained in this diary is just me taking a break from all that.  I can be myself here...

Well,  not really,  or else this wouldn't be appropriate AT ALL

But even then,  they don't take me as serious as I want them too

They always say things like "Hey,  Icey! You should chill,  dude! Go have fun or something,  sheeh" or "You need to drink this motherfucking yogurt while us adults drink beer"

I can't...

If I "chill" like they say,  they'll never take me seriously (Even though they already don't) and if I drink the yogurt,  I'll be accepting the fact that I'm not as grown up as I claim to be....

I can't ever win

There are only two options here... Or accept the fact that I'm the smallest and just go with it, even though people will never respect me or expect anything from me at all,  or just be as mature and serious as possible,  hoping that one day they'll notice how much I've grown and how independent I am... but.... I don't want to be like that all the time

I just want to be myself....

But this world isn't fair,  it never was

.....

I usually don't like to overthink things because I start feeling like crap and throw up,  so excuse me while I go do that

-Iceland

You may or may not be wondering what the fuck this chapter was...

I started reading a bunch of different "Iceland's Diary/Journal"  things and noticed how "serious" and "mature" they are and I got so intimidated >_>

Usually they're so serious and it has so much drama and rarely actually funny humor, while mine's like

"LMFAO I GO TO A CHILDREN'S SUMMER CAMP AND MEET MY BOYFRIEND!! <3<3<3 WHOOPS,  I MADE A MISTAKE AND NOW I'M FALLING DOWN THE STAIRS OH MAI GOSH"

Besides the fact that I was a cringey little noob when I started writing this,  this story is nothing like the others at all

Sure,  I'd believe you if you say there are other diaries like this in existence.....

But like I totally ruined it

Also I feel totally bad for those who typed in "Iceland's Diary"  in the Wattpad search bar (btw this story is one of the first three or something to appear) expecting to get something like Iceland having an existential crisis or just ranting things but instead,  they see this..... this garbage story full of crack and many "This was funny a while ago but not now" ideas

Don't think wrong,  I love this story to death and would never even think of deleting or changing it

In resume... this chapter contains all the lack of seriousness this book has

As for all of you guys that actually liked the idea of this story and are supporting me since always or recently...

Thank you...

THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU

FOR ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING

All the likes,  all those comments (I read every single one of them  so don't feel bad if I don't respond your's.  I probably felt very shy or couldn't think of something amazing or great to say) and if you're like me and you're shy to vote or comment on my story,  thanks for the views and for actually reading this (Don't be shy though,  I honestly love to see new people here,  even if it's been years or decades since I published this story)

Just thank you for everything <3

Now that that's done...

This is the 97th chapter,  meaning that soon chapter 100 is coming up (counting all those damn author notes)

I want to do something very special for this and I want you guys to give me all your ideas!  What would you guys like to see?  A Q&A?  A special chapter like the Christmas one? Please comment your idea

Don't worry though! For the 100th diary entry,  I'll think of some amazing and extraordinary idea (or just do like last time and create a chapter with your ideas)

If you're still reading- I'M SORRY YOU HAD TO READ ALL THIS,  I'M VERY VERY SORRY! YOU PROBABLY GOT BETTER THINGS TO DO

So go do those things now

Again,  thank you for everything and have an AWESOME DAY

P.S:  I didn't even try to fix grammar mistakes here so let's make it into a game.  If you spot more than 5, you win 10000000000000000 dollars and two goats