Tangled and Challenged

Chapter 5

I enjoy listening to the stories about what I do in my sleep. My sisters have said I giggle. Others have said I snore. My mom and my sisters have said I hit in my sleep. My ex-boyfriends have said I like to grab a hold of something. I know my dreams seem to be very vivid. A lot of times when I go through the day, I feel as if I am having Deja vu. I know that sounds crazy.

A lot of things can happen while a person is asleep. There were times when my dreams wouldn't happen at night. When it was going on, I felt as if there was a part of me missing. I learned dreams do come back. I also learned nightmares can happen at any age. I haven't had them before. I get scared, and I end up not being able to sleep. I just keep thinking about what happened or what can happen. It's not a good picture. When I go to sleep now, I try to keep positive thoughts. I don't want to get mad before I drift off. I especially enjoy going to sleep, after I have found out something awesome. It's even better after I have spent time with Mike. It's good because I will be thinking about him in my dreams.

I already like the fact he has the qualities I have wanted in my dream guy. I guess that's why there's a part of me which thinks our relationship is too good to be true. I try to enjoy every minute of it. I used to have a dream journal. My dream journal used to be filled. My dad had told me I couldn't bring all of them here to Delaware. I just know one of these days I can get another one. It will be filled with all my girlish fantasies. To me it feels good to have different journals. It helps me keep track of what's real and not.

There are fantasies I wish I could make happen. Of course, it would take a lot of work. Everything takes a lot of work. I know my fantasy of becoming a singer won't happen. I sing now, but that doesn't mean I will be a famous singer. I know I am going to have to work on my fantasy of being able to do a backflip and a full split. I must practice stretching. It takes time to become flexible. That is something I have always wanted.