Monday, August 15, 2016
The day started out good. I have changed my thinking since I got off work. My mom has lost her mind. I have just found out what has been going on with my brothers and sisters. It's worse than when I was living there. It hurts and ticks me off. I just don't understand.
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
When I am writing in my journal, I feel a whole lot better. I can write everything out and not worry. It's just like talking to God. When I'm praying throughout the day, I feel so relieved. I'm starting to find myself being happy again. I enjoy listening to music and just having a great time. I got my glasses yesterday, and everything is so much clearer. I'm really starting to learn what needs to be done.
I know with the relationship I'm in, there are some limitations. Yet, I still want to try. I want to see how long our relationship will last. I want to enjoy having someone who is there for me. I know I have my family, but I hate being single. For me, for what bothers me about it is, when I'm single no one wants to date me. When I have someone that's when everyone wants to show up.
Thursday, August 25, 2016
When you learn, you must face the reality of your life, you realize just how much I need to grow. I know at times I can be hypocritical and horrible. I know I need to start being a better person. I've been trying to remember everything my aunt Lisa has told me. I want to become a great person.
Sunday, August 28, 2016
There is so much going on inside my head. One of the big things is about Nate coming this upcoming month. I want to see him and spend time together. I have come to understand that by just being me, I am being somebody. There isn't a person who is exactly like me. I'm excited to see what is going to happen to me. I'm happy about the person I am when I'm letting go of the things on my chest.
Being able to literally just let go of all the issues I have inside, makes me feel so relieved. A lot of times when Im just typing away, I am wanting to let go. I'm wanting to just feel free.
Thursday, September 1, 2016
Yesterday, I was having bowel movement the whole day. Then this morning puke was what got me. I took some Pepto-Bismol. I took two naps today and I usually don't. I'm wondering what I should write about NaNoWriMo. I miss being able to write. I took the practice test for the driver's test and I failed. I am going to read over the manual some more. I want to make sure I pass. I want to read it as many times as I need to. When I took the test in school, I read the manual three times. Maybe that will work this time.
I'm hoping I will get even better at doing what needs to be done. When I was texting Nate today, he sent me a text of where he was reading Genuine Commitment. It makes me happy knowing he supports me. I hope so much, but as I have learned many times, only God can help make things happen. It's a relieving feeling to know, well to remember a lot of things I have believed in. I know I am going to get back into writing. I know just writing about what I know is good. There is so much truth in doing it.
Even though I seem to find myself being bored since I have stopped, I know I will get back into doing it.
Friday, September 2, 2016
It's been a heck of a day. The shop was flooded a little bit. My aunt bought up Nate again. It makes me think about what's going on between us. I haven't told her everything. What I have told her, there have been so many red flags. Maybe one day I will learn from this. I just hate that I end up struggling within myself about it. I am not trying to fight with myself any more. Maybe one day things will go perfectly. I must keep holding out.
YOU ARE READING
Tangled and Challenged
No FicciónIt's about being able to get past all the things in which have been pulling you down, to come back strong and willful.