Tangled and Challenged

Chapter 7

July 24, 2016

Overjoyed:

It's been a while since I have updated. I have gotten Genuine Commitment published. I am very proud of myself for it. I am glad I could finally do it. It got the Microsoft program. I have been editing over my stories. I want to make sure they are perfect. I won CampNanowrimo. I loved the fact my story was at 50,800 words. It makes me feel so good. Now that I'm back to using Microsoft Word, I think it will be a little better. I published Genuine Commitment with Lulu.com. I must make Together Again a little longer for it to be published.

I will be starting school soon. I am nervous but excited. I have gotten back into reading the stories on my nook. I have learned a lot of them are self- published as well. I am very happy about how these two stories have gotten me to grow. I am ready to be able to see other people reading my work. I got to buy my own copy. It will be sold on Amazon and Barnes and Noble soon. I am really excited about it. It takes six weeks, but I don't care because then everyone around the world will be able to read my story.

August 14, 2016

Becoming Who I Should Be:

I have spent so much time trying to be better. I want to be a strong person for myself. There are so many different things I want in this world. I know I have hit a snag with finding out I must pay for school. Yet, I know I can handle the situation. I am still trying to figure out if I will go back to writing stories again. I'm hoping when I do get back to it, I will be just as excited as I was when I was working on my past stories. I am very pleased with a lot of my work. Granted even though I published my last two, I know I can do far better. I want to become a hero of my own.

I'm hoping I can handle being able to do a whole lot more once I get myself situated.

October 18, 2016

A Long Time:

It's been a while. I have been using my book journal. I have been stressing over my autobiography. I keep trying to push Nate more into my mind. He is a distraction from all the craziness inside. Of course, that hasn't helped too much. The worried part of me just explodes.

It's not a good thing to be like that. I am trying to get better at work. Even with my notes I'm still messing up. I don't do much in my spare time. I've been trying and I feel like I suck at what I put on the paper. I just hope I can get back into being inspired. I want to be the writer I once was and more. I love it and I don't think I can give it up. I love it too much.

October 19, 2016

Wed. 10/19/2016:

I've been going through the motions about this autobiography. I am so worried it's not going to be good. I know there is so much I can put in there. There is so much going on in this world. I just want to be a good writer and can tell my story. Of course, with telling my story I can't get myself to open. I keep thinking maybe I should just use my poems and all the nonfiction things I have written. I love being able to express myself on paper and just don't know what has happened to me. I miss the thrill of being able to write like there's no tomorrow.

October 20, 2016

Thur. 10/20/2016:

Well I figured out what I am going to do about this whole writing situation. I'm hoping it will come out the right way. I have thought about writing one for so long. I got an idea about how to get my stories from Delaware. Of course, the one thing I have yet to figure out is how I am going to get my sister to send my stories into a box and have it be given to Joey and then he can bring it to me. It's a stretch and I hope it will work out. Of course, that is a long shot. Everything seems to be a long shot for me these days.