Tangled and Challenged

Chapter 1

These Past Weeks: Jan. 10, 2013 at 12:07am

These past weeks I have been going to church. We have been learning a lot about family lies. I enjoy learning all I can. My family may not change.

Mood: Accomplished

Life: Mar. 30th, 2013 at 8:42pm

Hey to the world, I have been away for a while. It's funny how people react. I never thought I would be so afraid of everything. I blame my siblings for most of my problems. I just need to find a way out. I am sure I will find it.

Mood: Awake

The Weak: Mar. 31st, 2013 at 12:52am

It's funny to me how I have been changing. For the past years, I have been going through the motions. I've been depressed and moody, and even EMO. Yes, I am what you would say a freak. Even though that may be me, I have grown. I am starting to feel confident. I don't let my family get to me as much. I have been letting out the truth. I wonder if it's working. Some people agree. Others are missing the old me. I personally love the new me.

It's good to feel up beat, and not want to cut myself or listen to sad music. I feel compelled to do my best. I enjoy hanging with my friends. I love my family even though they get on my nerves. I even decided to fall in love with my best friend.

Holiday: Mar. 31st, 2013 at 9:45am

It's Easter and I am feeling happy. I got a basket full of candy. Yes, I do have to share with my sisters. Yet, its candy. The crazy thing is that every year someone takes our candy. It's not even right. Yet, I am dealing with it. At least I am going to church today.

The church is having an egg hunt for the little kids. Easter is all about Jesus. It's cool to learn about him. It's opening my eyes to realize what type of person I want to be. I realized that I want to be a Christian person. I already value the small things.

What was said: Mar. 31st, 2013 at 9:45pm

Life is all about different types of things. Little did we know that the afterlife is what has us thinking. I have so much to say. Yet, it doesn't always come out right. I must wonder what I am doing. Studying, I know for a fact will get me by.

If I open to you then there must be some good. I love having fun. I just know that if I say something it may be considered rude. Well, only time will tell. I have nothing but time. Apparently, since I am just creating journal entries. Well, that's what's going on.

I know it doesn't seem like much to you. It does to me though. There are people in this world who have it worse than me. I am feeling sorry for myself. Yet, I shouldn't. I need to get myself together. I am happy with the person I have. Yet, every time I try to explain my thoughts to him, I don't get any reaction. I know he isn't affectionate. I just wish I could hear something from him. That's all I'm asking for.

Mood: Apathetic

Let it out: Apr. 2nd, 2013 at 12:49pm

I don't know what is going on with me. I only ever explode in front of my family. Yes, I may seem so happy, and go lucky, but I am not. My mom gets mad about coming home to a trashed house.

Well, when you only have one person doing something, it kind of speaks for itself. I can admit I do get mad quickly. I am just so out of it. I am filled with words. I know it may take me some times. I know that my life seems boring, and filled of endless complaints.

Yet, you would be saying the same thing too, if you lived in my house. I like being talkative. If I know the answer to something, of course I am going to raise my hand. If there is a problem, yes, I am going to add my two sense. I know it's wrong. That's just the type of person I am.

I know life has its ups and downs. Yes, I can admit I am a nerd. I do like school. I can complain about it sometimes. Yes, I do like having friends. I just know where my priorities lie. I do have hobbies. Just sometimes there aren't enough hours in the day. So, what if I write a book for a question or a paper. That's just me expressing myself. I like the idea of spilling my guts.

It relieves stress off me. I could write all day if you told me to. I like being able to get things done ahead of time. If my friends need help, I will try to help. I may lose friends for changing the things I do, and way I act. I just know that sometimes that's how it must be.

Everyone has a problem. God has made things possible through himself and his son Jesus. He has the book that gives us answers. Yes, we may question whether he is real or not. We just must trust what is in our hearts. It's our job to serve him. We just need to deal with what comes along. I am trying to be a good sport.

I get in trouble for yelling. I know my brothers and sisters aren't my responsibility, but they shouldn't be acting like animals. It just isn't right. That's just my opinion. You never know what can happen of course. I am going to keep moving forward.

Mood: Bitchy