Team Ten Imagines

Kade Speiser- Goodbye Kade

(A/N; Based upon the Gossip Girl Episode- Double Identity (Season 4, Episode Two) Comment below if you love GG! X)

I am sorry for the hurt I've caused you over the past year. I'm sorry for next saying 'I love you' back to you quick enough. I'm sorry for the times I forgot we had a date. I'm sorry for making you cry every time we argue. But, most of all I am forever sorry for cheating. She meant nothing, I thought me and you were done forever. It's no excuse, I know. I hope one day you'll find room in your heart to forgive me, but for now L.A isn't the right place for me. 

I love you always Y/N.

-Kade

I got into Jake's Tesla, next to him, and we raced to the airport. Kade had been gone for 2 and half months totally MIA, until I got a tip of a pap he was flying to Paris after being injured in Prague. We raced through LAX, for what seemed like too long until I saw him. I was dressed up ready to go an event, I had a black maxi dress on, massive heels, my hair was in bouncy curls and I had full face glam on.

 "Kade." I said as we ran over, he turned around and my heart started pounding. "We were so worried." I mumbled. Jake awkwardly slipped away and went back to the car. "How did you find me?" He asked, his eyes filling up with tears. "A pap tipped me off, they thought I should know you were okay." I replied, my eyes prickling with tears. "I never wanted to leave Y/N." He said quietly. "You never had to, we could've sorted it, been just friends- I never wanted you to leave your life." I replied. " I collect my passport with my new name on it in Prague, I'm meeting Lillia there." He said in a near whisper. "Lillia.." I sighed. "Your world would be so much better without me in it." He muttered. "It wouldn't be my world without you in it Kade." I said my eyes becoming glassy. "Lillia she knows me as Jack Fraser." He said, a tear forming in his inner corner. "I don't love you anymore Kade, but that doesn't mean that you should leave." I whispered. "Tell Lillia who you really are and come back to L.A- resume your life as you left it. The damage is far gone now, I'm just glad you're safe and happier than last time I saw you." I said softly, resting my hand on his arm, a tear rolled down his cheek. "I can't." He muttered, "I can't come back, I'm sorry." He said. I

 looked at my watch it was 4 pm, my event started at 8 and I had to attend the venue first for interviews. "Please don't go, I need you here, in my life Kade." I said. "Kade is dead to me." He said, suddenly becoming cold. "You've got a launch party to get to." He said, emotion rushed back through his voice. "And you can come, surprise everyone." I begged. "I can't Y/N, I love you. I fucking love you, but I need a fresh start. Away from all the bullshit. I'm sorry." He said. His flight was called and I held his hand. "If you ever need me Kade, I'm a phone call away okay?" I said, my voice broke. "I know you are. Thank-you for the memories and everything you've ever done for me." He said hugging me tightly. 

I watched him walk away and I broke to pieces, I had a little cry on the way back to the Tesla. I fixed it, before opening the door. "Kade...?" Jake said, trailing off as I shut it. "Kade's never coming back. We're gonna go back and tell everyone it was a fake tip off. He's gone under a new name Jake, we'll never find him again." I said putting my seat-belt on. "Hey.." He said trying to hold my hand. "Jake we need to get back to the house and finalize the venue." I muttered.

I explained to everyone what happened as I had my makeup touched up. It got to 8 and I got into my limo with my brother Anthony who was walking me in tonight. It was my beauty line launch, but I couldn't stop thinking about Kade. "Hey we can always cancel." He said looking at me as we pulled up. "We've got a show to deliver, come on." I said. We got out and snuk in.

The whole night was a blur, and my feelings towards anything were so numb. 

Goodbye Kade.