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Justin Roberts- Stronger Than I Was

A/N: Based upon Eminem's song, 'Stronger Than I Was'. Listen if you'd like, it'll help carry the story. (video above) x

Justin dumped me 2 months ago now, but I can't get him out of my mind, he's all I think about 24/7. He's all that fills my thoughts. The fans fill my comments with 'get back with him' or 'we're here for you'. After I released the video, I got a lot of support, but equally a lot of hate. His die hard fans claimed I was a 'gold digger' and he was 'better off without me'. It hurt in the beginning, I did a lot of crying on the phone to my Mum. I even flew home to y/h/t (your home town) for 3 weeks, Jake begged me to come back- I owed him an explanation to what was going on.

Jake, Erika and Anthony have been my rocks. Despite the fact, Jake has his own shit with Martinez twins- he made me his priority. Even-though, Erika has recently moved into her own place, she's made me her priority. And, despite Anthony is in a fresh relationship with Rocky- he's been there for me and so has she. I have a lot of people there for me, but I feel so alone.

The pain hasn't eased, I don't feel any different than the day he dumped me. I've seen him around the house, but it's clear he's avoiding me. I just want it to be how it was before, we were together for 3 and half fucking years man. His reason was he needed to focus on work, he was too busy for me. He tried to ease into the conversation, but that didn't make it hurt less. It made it hurt more. That he wanted to conceal it. He wanted to just slip it in to a casual conversation.

But, we ended up arguing shortly after. He told me he hated me, he never wanted to see me again, that I made his life a misery and that he'd rather I moved back to y/h/t and never return to L.A.

He tried to apologize, but the damage was already done.

No 'sorry' could reverse the insults he threw at me.

Everyday, I become more numb and maybe that's me becoming stronger? 

I don't know.

It hurts me more than I could've ever imagined.

I was and still am head over heels for him.

We planned a future.

We had a fucking future plan.

But, before I met him I was still me.

Now, he's gone. I can still be me.

I am stronger than I was at first.

I've begun to rebuild my life, he tried to ruin me, but I'm Y/N L/N and I won't be ruined by a stupid guy.

I'm getting up.

Fuck this shit.

But you won't break me
You'll just make me stronger than I was
Before I met you, I bet you I'll be just fine without you
And if I stumble, I won't crumble
I'll get back up and uhhh
And I'mma still be humble when I scream fuck you
'Cause I'm stronger than I was - Eminem (Stronger Than I Was)