Sing For Me

Cards and Cares

I slowly open my eyes its still dark not really sure what time it is, Ben has gone too but not too long ago as his side of the bed is still warm. I'm tired and still feeling sick, really hope this stops soon didn't really have it with Riley and Ellie. The only difference this time being that I've got all the support I could wish for and when I think about it any amount of sickness pain or discomfort would be worth it to have Ben's baby.

I still have that niggle in the back of my mind after getting Matt's card for the children, Ben and Dad had tried desperately to make me forget it and to make little of it, I suppose the fact he'd taken it to Dads says that he has no idea where I am, Maybe he didn't take it there perhaps his mother did she was always afraid to say no to him, he was like his father a bully and a manipulator. They stood by him after what he had done, giving him an alibi after I went to the police and then making out they didn't know where he'd gone when he ran off. Well he's obviously put in an appearance again. I wish he hadn't but I refused to let him ruin my Christmas, my first Christmas in years that I've been truly happy. The children deserved it, he was no father, Ben had been more of a father to them in these last four months than he had the whole of their lives.

"Good Morning Sweetheart" Ben says carrying in a tray of breakfast for me again

"Good morning sweetie, Merry Christmas" he puts the tray down and kisses me

"Merry Christmas my darling, how are you feeling today?" he looks concerned love him

"Sick" I say with a smile "But I'm OK I can cope with it" he puts the tray on my lap it's breakfast for two a cup of ginger tea for me to help settle my tummy, bless him he went out especially yesterday afternoon in the mad rush to get it for me. It was little things like this that made me realise how much he loved me and I loved him I really did more than anyone I'd ever met and I was carrying his baby, a baby that like Riley and Ellie would want for nothing and would have more love showered on him or her than a child could.

There was a card on the tray for me I opened it "To My Gorgeous Girlfriend" it said, inside there were more of those hearts and kisses like on my note from yesterday that I had placed on my bedside table next to a photo of Ben and I.

To My Darling Lisa

You have made me the happiest Man alive

You have given me everything

Merry Christmas

Forever All my Love

Ben

xxxx

Those baby hormones hit again and I well up but try and stop it. I reach for the drawer on my bedside table and pull out my card for him mine being a soppy one as I'd never really brought one before but I knew Ben would appreciate well at least not laugh at me. For my gorgeous boyfriend it read with two teddy bears sat in front of a Christmas tree cuddling reminded me of Humphrey and Bunty if you pressed the little button at the bottom of the card the lights on the tree came on and it played a little jingly version of Jingle Bells. He looked at it and smiled, he giggled when he pressed the button, he reads what I had written

To My Sweet Sweet Ben,

Merry Christmas Cariad (welsh for love)

Love you all my Days

Lisa

xx

He loved it "Thank you Sweetheart, that's the sweetest card I've ever had" I'm sure he was just saying that. We sat together having our breakfast, the calm before the storm it wouldn't be long surely before the children were up. The amount of presents in the living room for them was quite ridiculous but more than worth it.

Ben had packed our bags ready for our trip to Yorkshire I dread to think what he's put in them laughing in my head. I'm so looking forward to meeting his Family, especially now. I wanted to give him one of his Christmas presents before the children got up. I've had it hidden in the wardrobe as he's done nothing but prod and poke at all the other's since I put them under the tree.

"What's this?" he asks "Your hiding things from me Miss Jones?" he's laughing

"If only to stop you nosing Mr Langley" I joke. He takes the present and opens it.

Inside is a picture frame made of solid silver "A Picture frame" he comments underneath he spots the envelope that comes with it

"Open it" I tell him he finds the voucher for a family portrait session

"I bought it when I asked you to move in but maybe now we could wait till the baby is born so we are all in it, our family" he is smiling at me as he does, I love that I make him smile.

"It's perfect sweetheart, thank you so much" with that I hear a shout

"Mummy Mummy he's been"