Sing For Me

I need Ben, I need him here

"Beep beep beep" No not yet it's too early I'm not ready if I roll over it might go away "Beep beep beep" I hear a deep groan from the left of me closely followed by that familiar cuddle and kiss on the cheek. I don't want to leave this place "Good morning my darling" he says in that deep gruff voice that he has first thing in the morning 

"mmmmm I don't want to get up Benny" I say barely audible he laughs cuddling into me closer 

"then let's stay here all day sweetheart just you and me" what a lovely thought 

"I'm so tired" I tell him and I am lasts nights prom change took it out of me saying yes probably wasn't a very good idea but if I tell Ben I would only get "well I did say" my possessive and protective old softy I wouldn't change him for the world. I was lucky that I only had a half day today so I could at least rest later. 

"I'll get you a cuppa darling" Ben tells me "that'll wake you up" I don't think a bucket of ice cold water would wake me up this morning my morning sickness is playing up and I have a horrible headache surely down to just being tired.

Oh no that familiar feeling causing me to dash to the bathroom the pills just ain't working today. Ben follows me as always rubbing my back he is such a love, how something so simple can bring so much comfort "Oh Sweetheart" he says wiping my face "You'd been feeling so much better too" I had this is just not fair. I'm teary just because I hate being sick. Ben takes me in his arms and makes it feel better just to have him there, I know when it comes to having the baby however scared I am however much its going to hurt If I've got Ben there then I can do it, he gives me strength somehow to face things that scare me, he has helped me overcome so much which is why I love so very much. "Its OK my darling I'm here, don't cry" he says with that usual soothing voice. I straighten myself up "Are you sure you are OK to work today I can ring Mike" I shake my head at him while rinsing my mouth out 

"No I'll be fine sweetie I'm only in this morning" he looks at me not convinced. "Baby, don't worry" rubbing his arm as I say it.

By the time I'm dressed, have had some food and some paracetamol I feel a little more human. 

"Are you OK Mummy?" Riley asks me 

"I'm fine sweet pea" I answer 

"Is baby making you sicky again?" he doesn't miss a trick this boy 

"Yes darling just a little bit but Mummy doesn't mind" he cares so much love him. We all pack in the car ready for the day ahead, with a few songs from Jake and the Never land Pirates to send us on our way its surprising what it does for the soul. I'm dropped off first as I have to be in by eight, Ben comes to help me out as I meet Mike at the doors.

He calls to Mike "My girls not at her best this morning Mike look after her for me" Mike walks over 

"You look pale honey are you sure you're OK" I look at them both staring at me 

"I'm fine OK" realizing that I've snapped "Sorry, sorry" I say holding my hands up 

"Come on then grumpy you can put the kettle on" Mike jokes and Ben smiles 

"I'll see you later Sweetheart" he kisses me "I love you" he says 

"I love you too baby" and I head off the kids waving at me through the window as Dom and Ei walk across the car park waving at Ben as they pass while he toots the horn. 

"Good Morning campers how are we this morning" Dom asks "Lis sweets you don't look too good" he says wrapping his arm around me 

"Oh darling you do look poorly little Langley giving you the run around today" Ei asks me and I just go with it, it's not worth protesting about "Come on love cuppa for you" Ei says as we all head in.