Sing For Me

Hungry for you

Ben's point of view

I roll over still half asleep to wrap my arms around my girl but shes not there. Her side of the bed is cold she's not been there for a while Lisa!! I jump out of bed to try and find her, oh my god is it the baby have her contractions started, where is she. I try and run downstairs as quietly as I can not wanting to wake anyone

I see a small light coming up the hall "Sweetheart are you down here" I whisper I take a look into the kitchen and there she is sat on the floor with the fridge door open dipping chocolate fingers into a tub of custard. She hasn't spotted me because she has her IPod in her head bobbing up and down humming along to her music. I walk over to her and as she spots me she takes out her headphones giggling looking like she's been caught doing something she shouldn't. "So I go running around the house thinking to find you in labour and instead I find you in the fridge" I say crouching down to her 

"I'm sorry sweetie, we were hungry" she says I giggle with her as I sit on the floor next to her wrapping my arm around her. 

"Have you got any for Daddy?" I ask her giving her a cheeky grin and she offers me the box of biscuits 

"I'll pass on the custard though" I tell her making her laugh.

"Do you think I'm fat sweetie?" oh dear we having a self conscious moment I'm thinking, she is getting bigger her bump has really grown in the last couple of weeks but to me she has never looked better 

"No my darling I think you look beautiful" I tell her 

"Well I don't feel it" she says pulling a pretend sulk 

"How can you fancy me when I look like this?" she really has no idea how much I fancy her right now and by saying this she's just encouraging me to prove it. 

"Sweetheart I have fancied you since the first moment I laid eyes on you, that day on the tube when you touched my hand to take my hanky it was like a lightening bolt shot up through me that's why I ran after you I couldn't let the girl that did that to me get away" I tell her and she smiles. "I loved you but I wanted you as well I had never felt that before what you did to me I couldn't understand it" she touches me hand 

"Do I still do it to you?" she asks 

"Oh Yes like you cant imagine" I say to her and she blushes oh those blushes I will never tire of them and hope she never stops producing them. They are my signal that I have reached her deep inside a place where only I was allowed. 

"Do you get fed up of me being so negative all the time" she asks seriously, 

"No if I'm honest it gives me a purpose, I love making you feel good about yourself Lis you know that no matter how hard on yourself I think you are" I lift her head because as always she has bowed it when she doesn't know what to say. 

"I'm not as bad as I was though" she says knowing she has changed 

"Not at all baby" I tell her "I don't want you to change Lis, your my girl and I love you the way you are downers and all" I say to her and she smiles she gets it.

"Do you not think that I was nervous when we met darling" I start to tell her she looks at me curiously "That day I took you for coffee I was a complete wreck inside, I so wanted you to like me as much as I liked you and when you were so shy it scared me thinking I wasn't what you wanted" she puts her forehead to mine "I wouldn't have blamed you an old guy pushing forty, old fashioned set in his ways, you said that you never saw me in my glasses until that day you turned up at the college that's because I used to think you'd see me as a nerd or a bit of a geek in them. That day on the tube I'm surprised I got the hanky to you because I was blind without them" I laugh and she does