"Fuck," I laughed as I tripped over my feet and landed on top of the sprinklers. "Ooh waterfaaaall." Matt shook his head as he tried to pick me up but I slapped his hand away. "Stop it, imma whale bitch." I put my mouth over the water, taking a mouthful before spitting it into the air.
"Y/n?" I looked towards the door where Dana came out in a robe.
"She did this to herself I-" Matt chuckled as he tried to help me up again.
"Ugh, that felt refreshing." I said as I pushed my soaking wet hair back. Maybe I had a little too much to drink at the club. "Hey baby!" I stumbled to the porch with Matt's help before falling into her arms.
"Y/n..you said you wouldn't drink too much." She said in a disappointed tone as she helped me up.
"Yo, they just kept coming and coming and coming and coming and comin-" I stopped only when continuous hiccups racked my body. "Uh oh. I gotta lay down before I hiccup to death. Bye matty, thanks for taking me out buddy." I gave him a forehead kiss before entering the house. "Vanessssaaaa." I called tiredly as I started taking off my pants.
"She went home. Babysitter has school or something." I stopped as a sudden wave of emotions hit me.
"My babies..im such a bad mom." I sighed as I laid on the bed. Dana came over to me and helped me pull off my shirt.
"What? No you're not-"
"I am. I haven't been-" I rolled my eyes as another hiccup shook my stomach. "With them lately. I'm such a bad parent. I should be taking them to a park or or reading books to them." I wiped my cheeks of tears as I pulled the covers over my head. "I need to do better. I'm gonna do better."
"Y/n.." I didn't hear the rest of what she said as my body was succumb by sleep.
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"Will you guys be good for mommy?" I asked the twins as we walked down the halls of Ellen. My first 'solo' interview would be with her and what better way to come back into the spotlight than with my twins.
"Yesss!" Stella sung as she swung our hands.
"Cookies." Ezra said as he pointed at a table with snacks.
"Not now bud, after though I promise." He pouted as planted his feet into the ground and shook his head. "Ezra."
"No, cookie." I sighed before looking down.
"Ez, I said later. Let's go-"
"No!" I clenched my jaw before taking in a sharp breath and crouching down.
"Listen, I usually leave the hard to shit to mommy and I don't wanna get angry at you but-"
"Here you go." I looked up as Dana handed Stella and Ezra a cookie. "It's just a cookie babe."
"That's not the point. I don't want him to get a hissy fit everytime he can't get something he wants." I pointed out as he now sat eating quietly.
She shrugged in response as she rubbed his curly hair. "It's not that big of a deal. They're only one." I sighed before rolling my eyes and standing up fully. "Are you mad?"
"Nah." I shorted before walking the twins to the side of the stage, waiting for Ellen to call me on.
"Yes you are..why are you mad?" I closed my eyes for a second to gather myself before looking at her.
"It's nothing. Just leave it."
"..Y/n Y/ln." Ellen said making the crowd cheer.
I immediately flipped my emotions around and wore a wide smile as I walked into view.
