sorry
I stared at my hands as they shook rapidly. I knew this feeling too well. The pumping heart, shaking hands, blurry vision, the rush. I gulped and tried to push my way through the club but I couldn't seem to get far. It felt as if I was walking in place but everything around me was moving fast, too fast.
My legs suddenly gave out in time and I landed on a leather couch. I brought my hands to my face and took slow breaths, trying desperately to sober myself up.
"Hey baby," I snapped my head to the right as a blonde sat next to me. She was holding a credit card with a corner of the white substance that seemed to be coursing through my veins at this very moment. "Want some more?" She asked.
What the fuck did I do?
24 hours earlier
"And I want a phone call every hour." I raised my eyebrows at Vanessa as I dropped my duffle bag into the truck of Justin's car.
"You want twenty four phone calls?" I questioned and she smiled sweetly. "I'll give you forty eight."
"That's my girl." She said and draped her arms around my neck. "Make sure you behave. I don't wanna have to fly out there and kick some bitches ass."
A smile pulled at my lips as I swayed us softly. "Becky with the good hair?"
"Mhm, Becky's gonna be a bald bitch when I'm done with her." I laughed and pecked her lips before pulling back when Justin and Hailey came out. "I can't believe we're letting this happen." Vanessa said to Hailey as they stood next to each other, watching us load up the car.
"Right? Can't we just say no? They'd listen." Hailey attempted to whisper and I couldn't help but laugh at how, well, how true it really was.
"Alright, everything is set and packed." Justin said happily as he closed the trunk. "If we wanna make the hotel rez we gotta leave now."
We both went to our girls and said our last goodbyes before this five hour drive. We could've taken a flight but we chose to drive and bond more I guess.
"I love you, call me when you guys make it." Vanessa said and pressed her lips to mine. I nodded softly before bringing my hands to her belly while crouching down.
"You take care of mommy my little nugget." I said in an oafish voice before I pressed my lips to her belly.
After a few minutes, Justin and I settled in the car and waved bye to the girls.
"Be good!" They called as we pulled out of the driveway and started down the dark road.
It was silent for a moment before I leaned forward and punched the aux into the radio.
Soon Drake filled the air and we spent majority of the car ride rapping along to the lyrics.
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"Ugh finally, you're driving back I swear." Justin groaned as he collapsed onto his hotel bed.
We had a joined suite-slash-penthouse and it was huge as hell. My room was up the stairs because Justin decided mid way that he was too lazy to take the stairs.
After dropping my suitcase on the bed, I pushed the balcony door open and stepped out, letting the humid Nevada air wrap around me. I stuck true to my word and called Vanessa.
"Calling me already? You must miss me."
I smiled to myself as I leaned against the rail. "Yeah or I'm just making you believe I'm about to behave tonight."
