TART The Sequel [TART 3]

Exam...

So, um

I officially have a fear of oral exams now

It went so badly, I'm still impressed over how fucking terribly it went

For the oral exam, we all get a stranger from out of town who specializes in whatever class our oral exam is in, so obviously this lady didn't know me

My science teacher was supposed to explain to her about my anxiety before the exam but apparently it didn't fucking work

It was such an unfair grade. Heck, it's an unfair exam! Obviously the people who can talk with no problem in front of others do much better than us with severe fucking social anxiety

The worst part was that I had an exam in a class that I'm really good at, and my trial exam went SO well so I had really high expectations for myself, and my hopes were all crushed the moment she told me my grade

I was seriously fighting tears while sitting there, it was so hard to fake that smile

And then I came out and one of the teachers asked me how it went, and I didn't want to burst out in tears so I legit went "it's not important" and kept walking

I instantly went to the bathroom and cried :( Luckily Mal and Amalie were there to comfort me...

I went back home and laid in my bed and cried, so yeah, I've gotten quite a few tears out today lol

I feel like crying just thinking about it

Honestly I feel betrayed, she was SUPPOSED to take my anxiety into consideration

And it really fucking sucks because I don't get to show how much I actually know, and I know that I'm good at science, but my anxiety gets in the way and it's so frustrating and I hate it more than anything

Mal came over a few hours later and we watched Coco (again lol) before Amalie and T also came over, and then we all watched Maleficent and The Beauty and the Beast (live action) together and ate pizza