TART The Sequel [TART 3]

Stuff

It's been a while, hasn't it? ^^;

I haven't been able to get myself to write for a long time. Just wanted to let you guys know that I'm not dead lmao

There's a lot going on in my life right now so writing on wattpad isn't exactly my first priority lol. I already told you guys that I thought I was developing depression, and I can almost guarantee that I have it now. And that's making things like my already intense anxiety skyrocket and a lot more has happened since then, and I'm just having a hard time figuring out how to cope with it all

Going through all of this has made me really think about my actions and problems and understand them on a deeper level, so in some ways I think this is good for me. I think I've matured and understood myself a lot better in these past few months

I'm just so grateful for my mom, I wouldn't be able to cope without her >_< She always notices whenever something is wrong, so she's usually here to help me through my nearly-daily breakdown/panic attack

It was so bad last night that I just sat in bed crying, sobbing and hyperventilating for so long that I couldn't even cry anymore, I just ended up sitting there empty. It was like I felt so much all at once, and then I just felt nothing at all

Anywho, my mom was so worried for me that she suggested that I stay home from school today. She even took a day off from work to keep me company and to keep me busy so I'm not left alone with my thoughts TwT ❤️

When I woke up this morning and went upstairs, she even told me that she had ordered some books online about how to cope with anxiety and depression and things like that to help me :'>

I even treated myself by buying "Ni No Kuni" for the Nintendo Switch :D I've earned a bit of money from my job and from commissions and I haven't treated myself in a long time, so I thought this was the perfect opportunity XD I can't wait until it arrives >w<

I have a friend (P) who is on "Norske Talenter" (which is the equivalent to "America's Got Talent" for Norway), and he went on to the semi finals!! I'm so happy for him!!!

Other than that, I don't really have much more to say XD I finally finished The Legend of Zelda: Breath of the Wild!! Now I need to finish Persona 5, Kingdom Hearts 2 & 3 and Ni No Kuni (when it arrives)

I've been watching Demon Slayer finally, and now I'm probably gonna try to finish FMAB or Fate/Apocrypha