TART The Sequel [TART 3]

Organizer Meeting

I'm gonna start by writing about yesterday XD

Mal, Amalie and I have two more friends that I'm gonna call T and JT and they've both done us a lot of wrong so even though we hang out at school, we never do anything together outside of school

During the school play, Mal and I talked with T when she was upset and she started talking about all the things she's done to us and she started crying and that's when I realized how much this had been eating her up. She talked about how she regrets it all so bad and things like that, and she really meant it

I had been thinking for a while that she was actually a really nice person, and after talking to her that day, I realized that it was true. So I told her that I've been wanting to include her in our little friend group for a long time, so the three of us decided to do something together (with Amalie)

So we had our first girl night together last night ^-^

We kind of goofed around for a while, but then our conversations started getting deeper. She opened up to us, and we opened up to her. She started crying, and next was Amalie, and then me. All three of us sat there crying our eyes out except for Mal XD So after us three stopped crying, T asked Mal if she had anything on her mind, then Mal opened up too and started crying and my first thought was "shit, we broke her" XD

We all just sat there crying together for many hours. I think it was from 4/5-ish until around 9

We've all been bottling up so many emotions and it's been bothering all of us, so I'm glad that we all got it out. I didn't even realize how much I was hurting until yesterday XD

Anywho, I'm really glad we did it because I think all of us feel a little better now, and I really want to have T be a part of our little group ^-^

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I went on as a an organizer for UKM, and it was literally only me and a guy from 7th grade from my town and we had a meeting today for the organizers so we caught a ride with the nice lady that's in charge of UKM in our town, and I was allowed to bring Mal with me since there's no way I would've been able to go alone (and it was a mandatory meeting)

So we met up at the train station at 7:50 :') We drove until I don't even know when to catch a ferry, and we legit came 5-6 minutes too late and had to wait an hour lmao

We arrived at around 12:30, and we started with basic information about the regional UKM, before doing the "get-to-know-each-other" games :')))))))))))

We started with having two rows of chairs facing each other, and the people on one row would ask the person across from them on the other row questions for a minute to get to know them, and for someone with social anxiety, this was absolute hell

I was shaking and I kept smiling and laughing nervously, and I kept looking away and stuttering alshalsjalsk

The first person I had to talk to was a girl who was luckily pretty easy to talk to because she wasn't nearly as shy as me XD One of her questions was "are you nervous?" and I laughed nervously and said yeah and she just said that she could tell :')

We had to move three seats to the left, and I ended up talking to a guy who luckily, again, was not nearly as awkward as I am XD He asked my name and then where I'm from, and I said that I was born in the US and he said "oh that explains your name. It's a really pretty name" and I seriously didn't know what to do because I have never heard anyone compliment my name before in real life >_< And, again, he asked if I was nervous :')))))))))

We had to move again and I ended up with one of the ladies in charge THANK GOD so it was much easier to talk with her, and I would ask her questions and she would have really long answers so all I had to do was smile and nod lmao

We moved for the last time and I ended up with another guy, and neither of us knew who was supposed to ask questions but luckily he took control XD AND HE NOTICED THAT I WAS NERVOUS TOO ALSHALSJALS IS IT THAT OBVIOUS? T_T

We had to sit in a circle afterwards and do another game, but we all needed to repeat our names and when I said mine, the lady in charge complimented my name too in front of everyone and I wanted to die :'))) I'm glad people actually like my name though XD

I can't even explain how nervous I was, I can't believe I didn't have a heart attack or panic attack

We had to count all the letters in our entire name at some point, and I seriously could not count because I was so nervous that my thoughts were all jumbled and I couldn't think straight

And after doing the games in the circle and sitting for a while, I seriously needed Mal to help me walk because I was all wobbly XD I was stuttering for a long time and I was jumbling up my words too, I even said "moping cechanism" at some point instead of "coping mechanism"

Dear god I'm glad I'm finished with that

The rest of the day was boring, until Mal and I went to the bathroom and Mal yelled "is there anyone here?" and we got no answer, so she said (loudly) "my pad thinks it's a tampon"

Then we noticed that two of the bathroom stalls were occupied and we started laughing and tried to run away, but more girls came in and we both panicked and locked ourselves in a stall and hid until they were gone XD

On our way back home, the UKM lady with us suddenly slammed on the brakes so I looked up and there's a deer literally mere FUCKING CENTIMETERS AWAY FROM THE CAR

THAT DEER IS LUCKY TO BE ALIVE, IT'S A MIRACLE IT WASN'T HIT BECAUSE IT SERIOUSLY JUST BARELY MADE IT

We were all screaming and laughing because we were so amazed, shocked and relieved XD That deer should not have made it lmao, that was pure luck