TART The Sequel [TART 3]

Happiness T_T

JT and another guy were flirting together yesterday and I was just awkwardly sitting there XD

I guess JT felt the need to show off because they were both talking about how bad they were doing in math and then I said that I was doing pretty fine, and she hit my leg

It wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't for the fact that I flinched away from her and managed to ram a book into my jaw/chin :'>

So now I have a big red mark that hurts like hell lol

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Yesterday was Amajan2 's birthday and T and I were invited to go to a diner in town with her and some of her friends from her class

I actually felt really bad after it because it just felt like a reminder of just how lonely I really am. Don't get me wrong, I'm extremely happy that they're all close, it just hurt because I've been wanting to be a part of their little group for years now and they've only gotten closer after starting at a new school, and I realized how I was never gonna have the chance to be one of them

But I felt much better after going to Amalie's party today!!! I seriously almost cried from happiness

We were 12 people all together and I was so nervous because I'm only friends with Amalie and T and I thought I was gonna feel lonely and excluded again, but it actually went a lot better

Especially after most of them left and it was only me, T, Amalie and two of Amalie's friends left

The five of us just sat there and talked together for probably an hour or two, and when those two were about to leave, they suddenly started talking about how cool T and I really are

And then they said that we should be a part of the group and that we're officially invited to the girl nights and stuff that they have, and then the two of us were invited to the group chat where they plan these things

I seriously almost cried when they said that

I don't know if I've ever mentioned this here before, but I've looked up to those people for YEARS. All I wanted was to be a part of them, and I thought it was hopeless but now I finally have a chance

My heart is tightening up so bad when I think about this because I'm just extremely happy and I just wanna cry it all out TwT

These are genuinely good people! I don't like anyone in my class (except for Mark), I didn't like Mal, i know that none of them have been good for me so I've always longed to be friends with Amalie's gang

I'm so extremely happy TwT

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I have dwarf hamster pee on my hoodie lol

My cousin's girlfriend invited my family over for coffee and cake today since it was her birthday, and they always let me cuddle with all their pets when I'm there :DD (they must know how happy it makes me lol)

So I cuddled with their dogs for the longest time, and then they brought their dwarf hamsters out and I got to see them for the first time :D

One of them peed on me lol

I got to cuddle with their guinea pigs last time and they both pooped on me sooo many times lmao

I'm just glad their poop is hard XD (that sounds so weird but it would've been so much worse with wet poop that just smears everywhere XD)

So yeah, that was nice :> (Not the pooping part though lol)

I finally picked up some kind of oil that I need for oil painting, so I FINALLY got to try oil painting!!

Misty walked over it though and I kinda yelled "no" really loud while Hannah had friends over lol

I managed to save my painting, but I'm worried for Misty now ;-; The paint won't wash off her paws so she has one leg that's blue

I'm just scared that she's gonna keep licking it and die-

I don't know what to do without Misty, i love her too much T_T

I caught it on tape lol so it's gonna be in my speedpaint that I (hopefully) post tomorrow XD