TART The Sequel [TART 3]

Heart Attack?!

I think I'm actually happy XD

That sounds kinda sad and weird but really, I feel like I haven't been truly happy in many years

Like, I'm being goofy again XD

You guys know in Inside Out when the main character was losing parts of herself? That's kinda what I think happened to me, because I completely lost my goofy and giggly side

But I can tell that I'm feeling better because I'm randomly singing and dancing again XD That's always how I could tell if I was in a good mood or not lol

Plus I'm laughing a lot more :>

So yeah, I think these are good signs ^-^

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(This part was written earlier today when I was still in shock T_T)

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST

MY HANDS ARE NUMB AND IM SHAKING, I THINK I LEGIT ALMOST FAINTED OR HAD A PANICK ATTACK

I've never been this scared before in my life

I'm only at the nursing home on mondays, wednesdays and fridays (this week and next week) so I was home today, and when I got up this morning, I looked out the window and both cars were gone so I knew that I was home alone

I got up, had breakfast, got dressed and I sat down to play some Overwatch, and all of a sudden all the lights started flickering like crazy and then everything turned off

That's happened a few times when I'm home alone and it still spooks me lol, but what happened next scared the shit out of me

I started hearing some other noises, and then I heard a door fucking open from inside the house

And then I heard footsteps

And then my fucking sister comes out of the bedroom

I THOUGHT I WAS HOME ALONE AND A SERIAL KILLER WAS MESSING WITH THE LIGHTS TO FUCK WITH ME, I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE

She came out (also a little spooked from all the lights going out), and I had a really nervous laugh lmao and I was shaking so bad

Then my hands went numb and I stuttered so bad when I tried to talk with her that I seriously couldn't talk

And then I got extremely dizzy and I didn't know if I was having a stroke, heart attack or panic attack XDD

I'm just glad I didn't faint lol

YOU GUYS HAVE NO IDEA HOW TERRIFIED I WAS

I DEBATED TO HIDE UNDER THE TABLE BUT I COULDN'T MOVE

I WAS PARALYZED WITH FEAR

I thought that was gonna be my last moments-

It must've looked hilarious though; I'm sitting there about to faint, expecting a serial killer to come around the corner and then little Hannah waddles in with bedhead, barely awake 😂😂

I've seriously never stuttered so bad in my life

My voice got really high pitched too, I sounded like I had seen a ghost T_T My head started spinning and my whole body went numb and I almost fainted ;-;

I just had to give up talking and take a moment to breathe before I could talk again XD

I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE WITHOUT SAYING GOODBYE TO MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS