TART The Sequel [TART 3]

Fuck Her

I'm so sorry for talking about this again

Mal's back to destroying my life :')

I thought I was finally free, I thought I could actually be happy. I was finally starting to get close to the three friends I have in my class, and I was so proud of myself for being able to actually stand on my own two feet for once

For the first time, I didn't have to live in the shadow of anyone else. It felt so good

But Mal's lost all her friends, so now she's trying to get close with my three friends in my class (JT, Mark and another girl)

And it's absolutely terrifying. I will never be happy as long as Mal is around, and if she becomes friends with my friends, I won't be free from her

This wouldn't be such a problem if it wasn't for the fact that I genuinely hate her guts. I really wish I was exaggerating, but I'm not

I can barely look at her (no joke, I haven't looked her in the eyes since the whole ordeal started), and now I have to listen to her talk and laugh and win over my friends every day?

She walked up to my three friends and I today and they kept talking while I just stood there silently, and it was a little funny because Mark suddenly said "why is Kaitlin so quiet all of a sudden?"

All of us went dead silent and Mal just walked away lol (thank fucking God)

I can't express how tempted I was to scream "go away" to her. The only reason why I didn't was because that would only give my friends another reason to dislike me and pity Mal

Aaand now I'm having panic attacks again because of her :))))

I couldn't even go to one of my classes because I knew she was gonna sit with us, so I spent two hours sitting in another classroom all alone crying and panicking

Getting through the school day was so hard because the only thing I could think about was how doomed I am. Am I gonna have to go through this every day for another year or two?

I don't know how to cope through that

I seriously would've dropped out of school if it wasn't for the fact that this education is my ticket out of here

So yeah, I had another panic attack when I came home and basically cried until I didn't have any tears to cry anymore

And then I napped for like 3 hours lmao

Athena was so cute though, she kept licking my tears XD Speaking of Athena, my dad sent me this photo:

Lol

I'm sorry for writing such a gloomy chapter T_T I'm very lucky to have Amalie and T though, I trust them with my lives and I'm so grateful for them