TART The Sequel [TART 3]

Dear God-

I've already finished watching all the cut scenes for Chain of Memories, and now I've started all over again on Kingdom Hearts 2 lol (on easy >_<)

I started playing when I got home from school today and I've already played 4 hours of it lmao

Anywho, I need to hurry up and watch 358/2 Days because I really should've watched it before I started playing KH2 XD I've seen probably about an hour of it from before, but I'll just start from the beginning again and watch the whole thing

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If you're sensitive to sexual things, don't read the rest of this lol

I'm worried :(

I've mentioned this before, but my two friends from class (excluding Mark) are CONSTANTLY talking about boys and sex

I've managed to tune out most of it and I've gotten pretty used to it by now, but JT is hanging out with a boy tonight and I'm 90% sure she's gonna sleep with him T_T

I wouldn't care if it wasn't for the fact that SHE'S NEVER GONNA STOP TALKING ABOUT IT

And I was already sick of hearing her talk about this guy after two days T_T It's ALL she talks about and it just bothers me because this isn't exactly a nice guy and he's taking advantage of her but she doesn't see it

He broke her heart a few months ago and now he's gonna do it again, but this time it'll be after he takes her virginity

It sucks though because I want to stop her from making this mistake and I want to help her but I know there's no point because nothing I say or do will get through to her, it'll only make it worse :/ But I feel like a horrible person for not saying anything about it, it feels like I'm being dishonest with her

Oh well, there's not really anything I can do about it :') I'm more bothered by the fact that I'm gonna have to listen to EVEN MORE talk about boys and sex

THERE'S A MILLION OTHER TOPICS TO TALK ABOUTTT

I can't say or do anything without it being taken the wrong way and they've gotta joke about it all. the. damn. time.

I wouldn't mind it if it was like deep conversations about it or something lol, but it's literally just things like "lmao imagine having a boyfriend and realizing he has a small dick and having to break up with him lmao" and "my boyfriend shoved this up my ass last weekend" AND IT NEVER STOPS

While I'm on the topic of things that my two friends from class does that bothers me, Mark has a crush on a girl that he's never met (she's just an internet friend), and JT and B basically forced that information out of him and are constantly making fun of him and saying things like "that's not an actual crush lmao, you can't like someone you've never met"

And I get so mad every time I hear that because just because Mark hasn't met her, that doesn't make his feelings any less real

And I'm sorry but I would NOT take relationship advice from two of the most shallow people I know - they know NOTHING about these kinds of things

I don't know if these heartless people are even capable of feelings like this

I sound so horrible right now, I'm really sorry >_> I can't quite explain it, but if you had met JT and B, you'd understand why I don't exactly think very highly of them

The thing that worries me the most though, is the thought of them rubbing off on me. T's moving next year and Amalie's gonna be an exchange student in the US, so I'm left all alone here - only with JT and maybe B. I'm scared of what that'll do to me, I'm terrified of turning into someone like them

So yeah, I'm surrounded by nothing but horrible people next year (literally my entire class sucks), so that'll be the ultimate test of my strength :'>

I mean, it'll probably be fine, I just need to keep reminding myself that it's all temporary - I'm gonna get away and never see these people again >_< One day, these chains that are keeping me a slave to this hell hole will loosen and I will finally be free :'>

That sounded a lot sadder than it was intended lmao

ANYWHOOO last thing, I have good news! :D In one of my health classes, we're finally dealing with a challenging chapter lol! XD It's about the human body, so we're gonna go through all the organ systems

Meaning we're gonna work with the skeleton, muscles, respiratory system, digestive system and so on, and my favorites: endocrine system and the nervous system! :DDD

I had a test about the nervous system in 9th or 10th grade and since we started with getting grades in 8th grade and I slacked off so bad, that was the first test I ever aced in science class and I was so extremely happy! TwT I nearly cried and I remember it so well because H turned around and was like "woah you got a 6? You're smart!" XD

That was probably the only time I ever felt really smart at school lol. You could quiz me on anything from that chapter and I would answer all of it correctly in a heartbeat, I don't know why my brain just soaked up that whole chapter XDD

after that test, I started seriously debating to take the health class >w< So I can't wait to go back to the nervous system!