TART The Sequel [TART 3]

RIP, Qinni

I don't really know how to write this chapter because I don't want it to be too sad, but I also feel so horrible if I start adding emojis and "lol" everywhere >_<

I was scrolling through instagram when I saw this:

And I was really confused because this is a Disney account and that had nothing to do with Disney, and then I read the caption and my heart dropped to my stomach

Just like many aspiring artists, she was one of my biggest inspirations. I remember when I first made my instagram account (my personal account, before yunofangirl), she was the first or second artist I came across and she inspired me so much

She's been sick for many years though, and yesterday, she passed away. I know she's had a severe heart disease and has had 4 open heart surgeries, and she had stage 4 cancer

I get so sad when I think about it, because she was so young and had so much yet to experience. She had so much talent, and I looked forward to seeing more art from her (and a big portion of her life was spent in a hospital)

I've never spoken with her or anything so it's not like we were close, and she's not my number 1 idol so I'm not heartbroken like I would've been if Baylee Jae had passed away (I'd fucking die with her), but it's still really sad to think about

I scrolled through instagram some more and so many of the artists I follow have posted about her and dedicated artwork in honor of her, and it's so touching (and sad) to see just how much she impacted the art community. Though she might be gone, her art will live on forever. At least now she doesn't have to suffer anymore. I hope she up in heaven, painting the sky

Things like this really make me so grateful for having a (relatively) healthy family, and for being healthy myself. I think it's easy for us to forget that not everyone has that luxury, and take our health and our life for granted

It feels silly to complain over such small things when there's people out there with real problems. It's in times like this where I remember to really cherish life and the people around me

So yeah, I'm working on a piece inspired by Qinni to honor her ❤️ I'll show you guys it when it's finished :)

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Oh my god, I almost just fainted >_<

I think my blood sugar might've been a little low lol

I had breakfast this morning, and I had a yoghurt for lunch at school, and then half of an energy drink with my friends before I went home

I got home at 3 and had one of these canned pineapple slices

(It wasn't that brand but it was that size XD)

It's not exactly very filling lmao and I was hungry by 4 p.m., but I wasn't craving any food and I was kinda nauseous so I didn't eat anything

I was getting really hungry by 5 but I knew I would be having dinner soon so I held out a little longer, and by 6 my mom told me to come up for dinner

I was drawing before that, and I could tell that my arms and legs were starting to tremble

I stood up to go upstairs, and I was shaking so badly and I was so lightheaded and dizzy that I had to bend over and hold onto the chair I was previously sitting on

My whole body got extremely hot and I started panicking because that's what happened to me that time I fainted in sex ed at school, so I knew I was about to faint

So I hurried up and sat down and put my head between my knees (I once read that that's supposed to help stop a fainting episode lol)

I felt a little better, though still really shaky and lightheaded, so I hurried up the stairs (carefully lmao) and got some food and now I feel a little better >_<

I was so scared of fainting on the stairs though lmao

I also just realized that I've been moving around and burning a lot more energy today than usual, so I guess it's not weird that this would happen to me XD

Well, I've learned my lesson, and from now on I'm always gonna force food in me when I come home from school no matter how little I'm craving food lol

Anywho, we watched a movie called "iHuman" today at school and it was basically a documentary about technology and AIs

It was kinda scary though, learning about all the horrible and manipulative sides of the internet and technology is so freaky and honestly scarier than horror movies >_<

I sat next to T during the movie and we started laughing at something at some point, and I started laughing because she was laughing and I swear we laughed for at least a full 5 minutes and probably annoyed the hell out of everyone there XD