TART The Sequel [TART 3]

Wtf, gum?!

(This first part was written last night)

I can't express how exhausted I am-

My legs, back and shoulders are aching >_<

I was alone today at school because JT and B were gone and Mark's class did something else lol

It was a little lonely, but sooo peaceful-

I got off early today so I had about 2 hours to chill before I had to help set up the artwork for UKM

I got there at 3:30 p.m., and T and I worked nonstop until 8:30 and we're still not finished so we have to work super fast before the opening tomorrow...

It was really tough at some point though... I don't really know what happened, but everything hit me at once and it was really hard to stay there. All these people kept coming into the room and helping and moving things around and that was really stressing me out, and then Mal walked in with P and I guess that was like the cherry on the top and I had to escape to calm myself before a panic attack hit...

P kept asking if I was ok, and I kept assuring him that it was all just a bit much and I needed to escape for a little while. I hate what Mal is doing to him and a lot of other people. She plays the victim and tells them about how much she misses me and wants to be friends with me again, and then when I tell those people that I have no plans on ever becoming friends with her again, I look like the bad guy

And I'm not completely innocent in this big ordeal either, but I am damn well not the bad guy

But no one will understand because I'm honest and I get straight to the point without sugarcoating anything, while Mal is a master at manipulating and lying and putting on that victim role

Plus, if I were to say something like "you have no idea what she's done to me" to those people she has wrapped around her finger, they would ask "like what?" and I can't answer that on the spot >_< That's what makes this so frustrating; the pain she caused me was underlying, low-key pain that you would only notice if you were extremely close with us. There's no specific big things, it's all the small thing that have built up to something way bigger, and I can't sum it up into a few sentences. I could write a whole book with all the things she did that hurt me over the years. That's why I haven't bothered writing them here; I know I would never finish

(Basically the bottom line is that being around her caused me nothing but pain and that made me to a worse person, and I don't want to be the Kaitlin I am around her. I'm not gonna sacrifice my happiness for her, and I refuse to believe that it's selfish of me not to do so)

I'm just so sick of it... Why can't she leave me alone? It's like she constantly does everything she can to get as close to me as possible. I hate it so much because all I want is to escape her

Today, while I was setting things up with T, Mal walked up to me and asked me if I had pockets. I didn't even look at her, I just flat out said "no" and I think she mumbled something like "I'll just leave this with you" and put a whole pack of gum next to me

I just looked at T and we both had that "wtf??" face

It was unopened and the exact kind of gum that I get, and P told me that that was her birthday gift to me -_- (probably because I would give her my gum on a daily basis back in 9th and 10th grade so she technically owes me a crap ton of gum...)

Is this bitch serious?

Lmao bribery and manipulation does not work on me

I feel kinda mean for saying this but T and I were wondering what the fuck to do with it, and I just said "it probably has herpes and coronavirus and everything all over it" so T threw it in the trash can and we both washed our hands lmao

She could give me everything I've ever wanted and I would still never become friends with her. I don't want anything to do with her, what part of that is so hard to understand?

So yeah, I was reminded again of how much I fucking hate her, but whatever :)

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I'm so upset :(

I didn't answer the emails on time on Mystic Messenger and the last day was today, so I had to go back to my last save day, which was on day 8... So I have to do the last 3 days all over again :(((

Those chatrooms are so tedious now >3>

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Ok last thing, I read the last few chapters of the third Michael Vey book today

And I cried again >_< I FORGOT ABOUT THE SAD PART AT THE END

I'm on book four now ;3 After page 45, everything in the Michael Vey series is a mystery to me and I'm so excited!!

The sad part that I just read (skip if you consider this a spoiler), was that the day Michael and his friends took down the ship (which is what the third book is about), it was the guy-who-died's birthday

So while they were celebrating their victory, the lights went out and one of the characters brought out a birthday cake with 17 candles - which is how old he would have been if he was still alive. They said some words about him, and his best friend broke down, and I broke down with him ;-; I HAD FORGOTTEN ABOUT THAT PART

So now my heart is broken :)

Anywho, I'll see you guys after UKM tonight (though I'll probably be too exhausted to write tonight so you might not hear from me until tomorrow lmao)