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Can You?

Can you,
just,
come back,
please?

I'll do everything to fix the damage,
I won't ever try to kill myself,
I won't ever ignore you for just a sec,
so, please, can you just ... come back?

I'm dying here by myself,
yet I don't want anybody cares,
I wanna get up but I can't,
'cause you've brought everything of me, do you understand?!

I'll be wherever you are so she can't ever rape you,
I'll kill your dad for destroying you,
I'll take over the leukemia from you,
I'll tell you every single second that I love you.

Please,
I just need you breathe.

I just wanna eat those too many ice creams,
have our usual unstoppable conversation from the morning,
have every single little fight and say a thousand apologies right after that,
and of course have our every "what if" when we count the stars at night.

So, tell me, Babe,
is it too much to ask?

'Cause I can't do this anymore,
to live without any soul,
to breathe yet don't have any home,
so can't I just scream that it sucks to be in this world?!

I just wanna tell you I don't wanna socialize,
I just wanna tell you that now, everything is bullsh*t in my eyes,
I just wanna tell you that I hate pretty much everything in this world,
and I just wanna tell you that I can't--I can't be here when you're not.

Oh, God,
I just,
I need you to live,
I need you to live,
I just need you to live.

I'm not even joking,
I'm dying,
I need you to live,
I'm f*cking need you to live!

So,
please,
can you,
come back?

Bintaro, July 11, 2019