A Survivor's Diary of the Apocalypse (TWD/Daryl Dixon)

S5Pt12 - My Worst Nightmare

I felt like I was traveling back in time.

I was sitting back at the CDC drinking alcohol in the lab. The timer was counting down to when it would self-destruct, but I didn't care.
I didn't want to live any longer.
Even I knew in the beginning that things would only get worse.
Daryl ran in front of me and I saw his panicked face.
"Kell, we have to leave now." He said.
I shook my head and drank my bottle of beer. He took the bottle out of my hands and threw it. I became angry and slapped him across the face.
"Fuck you!" I yelled.
He held his face and shook his head. He then grabbed my hand and tried to pull me up, but I fought back.
"I want to die!" I said. "And this time, you won't stop me."
Daryl looked at me and I saw he was heartbroken. Rick and Shane pulled him back and I watched as he disappeared.
"5... 4... 3... 2..." The timer counted down.
I closed my eyes at 1 and heard the explosion. My body burned like it was on fire and I screamed in pain.

Then everything went black.

I woke up at Hershel's farm. Everything was nice and peaceful, until I heard the gunfire. I ran outside and saw the herd was back. Walkers flooded the property and I couldn't find anyone. Then I heard whining from behind me and saw Bud lying on the ground. He was bitten all over and suffering, again.
"No." I cried.
"Why?" I heard a girl's voice say.
I turned around and saw Sophia. I gasped when I saw her and she just stood still.
"Why did you leave me?" She asked.
"I didn't-I-" I stuttered and started crying.
"Why did you leave me!" She screamed.
Her voice sounded like glass shattering and it echoed in my ears. I covered my ears and I saw her change into a walker.
"You let me die!" She screamed.
"No!" I cried.
I knelt down and squeezed my eyes shut. Her voice got louder and louder. Then she stood in front of me and I was forced to look into her cold, dead eyes.
"I'm dead because of you!"

Then everything went black.

I woke up and we were back at the prison. I was frozen in the middle of the field watching the war happen. The Governor just cut off Hershel's head, and that's when everything started. I watched as the Governor fought Rick, and saw him shoot Rick. Rick's shirt got covered in blood and he fell to the ground.
"No!" I cried. "Rick!"
The tank then busted through the fence and blew the prison to pieces. I saw Daryl run down to try and reach me. I wanted to run to him, but I couldn't move. Then the Governor walked over and stood at my side, and he raised his gun.
"Daryl, look out!" I yelled.
The Governor pulled the trigger and the bullet landed in Daryl's chest. He fell to the ground and looked at me.
"Kell." He said and blood poured out of his mouth.
Walkers then surrounded Daryl and he was gone. I cried and still couldn't move. I looked over at the Governor and he was wearing a crazed smile.
"You fucking psychopath!" I yelled. "Why do you keep doing this?"
He looked at me and then grabbed my throat. He lifted me up and choked me, and I struggled to breathe.
"You see Kelley, nothing lasts forever." He taunted. "We will all die."
I slapped his hands, but the grip around my throat got tighter. I soon stopped struggling and let death take me.

Then everything went black.

I woke up and we were at Terminus again. I watched as they butchered my family and lastly it was down to me. I looked over at saw Daryl's dead body slumped over the trough. Tears streamed down my cheeks and Gareth grabbed my face.
"Now, it's your turn." He taunted. "You earned your spot here... plus I heard women taste better."
"Do whatever you want." I said. "You already killed everyone I love. I have nothing left."
Gareth just stared at me and I felt a tear slowly stream down my cheek.
"I'm ready to die." I said.
I looked Gareth in the eyes as I waited for my imminent death. I felt the bat hit my head and I slumped forwards. I felt the rush of blood to my head, and everything was blurry.