A Survivor's Diary of the Apocalypse (TWD/Daryl Dixon)

S5Pt13 - First Time in Bed (smut⚠️)

I woke up terrified. That was by far the worst nightmare I've ever had. I was hyperventilating, crying, screaming, and couldn't breathe. My vision was blurring and I was feeling faint.
I saw Daryl move in front of me and grab my shoulders. As soon as I saw him, I closed my eyes and screamed. I didn't want to see him as a walker again. I couldn't trust my eyes or my mind.
"Kelley. You're okay. It was just a nightmare." Daryl said trying to calm me down.
"Kelley, are you okay?" Maggie asked.
"Not again." Michonne said.
"Dad what's happening?" I heard Carl ask.
"She's having a panic attack." Rick said. "Kelley, you're fine. You're safe."
"Babe, please calm down." Daryl said.
I covered my ears to block out their voices and squeezed my eyes shut.
"Why?!" I cried. "Why is this happening again?"
Everyone was just confused or worried, and I just couldn't stop crying. Daryl tried to hug me but I pushed him away.
"No." I cried. "You're not real! This isn't real!"
"Kelley." Daryl said and wrapped his arms around me. "It's me. I'm here."
I felt his strong arms wrap around me and I buried my face into his chest. He rubbed my back and I tried my best to calm down. I stopped crying about 30 minutes later but I was still scared. I was too afraid to move or talk, but I looked around the room and saw that everyone was alive. I was sitting up with my hands in my lap and looking at the floor. Everyone backed away from me, expect Daryl who was holding my hand by my side.
"Now what the hell?" Abraham asked. "She crazy or something?"
"She just had a panic attack. She used to have them a lot, but they went away. Now it's back." Rick said. "Don't you remember?"
"That shit would've got us killed out there." Abraham said.
"Just leave her alone." Rick said.
Abraham just scoffed and Daryl tensed up. He instantly stood up and walked over to Abraham.
"You got something to say about her?" Daryl yelled. "Say it to my fucking face if you're man enough."
Abraham stepped forwards and bumped chests with Daryl. Even though Daryl was shorter than him, he was just as strong and pushed him back. Rick walked over to me and I looked up at him then at Daryl. Rick rubbed my shoulder and I sighed.
"Hey!" Rick said. "Kelley doesn't need this."
"Shut up." Daryl said.
"I'm just trying to keep her calm." Rick said.
Daryl turned around and saw Rick's hand on my shoulder. He walked over to Rick and pushed his hand away.
"No. You're just trying to get in her pants." Daryl growled. "So back off and mind your own."
"What?" Rick asked confused.
"I see the way you look at her all the time." Daryl said. "I ain't stupid."
Daryl was pissed, I could tell, and it was all my fault. I saw Rick trying to keep his cool, but Daryl was pushing his buttons.
This happened all because of me.
I stood up and everyone looked at me. Daryl saw me and instantly forgot about everything else. I was his only concern at the moment.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
He slowly extended out his hand and I reached for it. As soon as I touched his skin, I flinched. But he wasn't cold, and his face didn't change, and he could see me.
I looked at Daryl and let go of his hand. I quickly shook my head and walked away. I quickly walked up the stairs and left the group, trying to get away from everything.
I closed the first bedroom door and sat on the bed. I ran my fingers through my hair and sighed. I finally calmed down, but I was still in shock of what happened.
"I had my worst nightmare, then Daryl almost fought Abraham, he called out Rick, and now I'm all alone up here." I thought to myself. "Just great Kelley."
"Kell." I heard a voice call. "Kelley." Daryl said as he opened the door.
He saw me and looked worried. I just shook my head and sighed. He stood in the doorway and didn't know what to do. I thought that I needed something to distract me, and he was it.
"Close the door." I said, and he did. "Lock it."
He locked the door, and looked at me confused.
"Take off your shirt." I said.
He did.
"Kelley, we don't have to." He said.
I curled my finger towards me, ushering him forwards, and he moved to stand in front of me. I scooted to sit on the edge of the bed, and looked up into his piercing blue eyes.
"Kell-" He tried to say, but I cut him off by grabbing his manhood.
He sharply inhaled and looked up at the ceiling, then back down at me, and I was keeping eye contact as I massaged his pants.
"Are you sure you to do this?" He asked me.
"Why wouldn't I be?" I said and slowly stopped moving my hand.
He then gently caressed my cheek and tucked my hair behind my ears. I just stared at him and he sighed.
"For what I said, about Rick." He said and paused. "And you're pregnant."
"Please Daryl." I said and slid my hand underneath his shirt, feeling his abs and working my way up to his pecs. "I wanna make you feel good. I want you." I begged.
Daryl then caressed my hair before moving his hand to grab my chin. I looked up at him with pleading eyes, and then he felt my lips with his thumb.
"I need you babe." I whispered. "Please..."
"Okay baby." Daryl said and nodded.
I got right to work and pulled him closer to me by his belt. I unbuckled it and dropped it on the floor, and slid his pants down the middle of his thighs. I saw the bulge in his underwear and knew I already made him hard, and I was now going to relieve him of it.
I pulled his underwear down and his cock sprang free, and I grabbed it with both hands. I looked up at Daryl as I gently licked the tip, and he stared down at me. I started moving my hand up and down along his shaft, and he groaned in pleasure. I began jerking him off slow, then fast, then slow again, then faster, using my finger to massage his head. I used my other hand to massage and tug on his sack, making him squirm. He then grabbed a fistful of my hair and bucked his hips forwards, and I kept moving my hand along his member. I then licked the tip again and slid my tongue down his shaft and back up again, before taking him into my mouth. He groaned as my lips tightened around him, and he was getting harder by the second. I then used my tongue and began bobbing my head back and forth, and I slowly stuck his entire member into my mouth. I hummed at the feeling, vibrating his cock, and he arched his back in pleasure. Daryl's fingers were still tangled in my hair and he used to other hand to hold onto my shoulder. He began to push my head forwards as he bucked his hips, and I moaned as I felt his member touch the back of my throat.
"Oh, shit Kell." Daryl moaned and thrusted himself into my mouth again.
I held onto his waist with one hand and kept feeling his sack with the other. I felt him twitch inside of me and knew he must be close. I dug my nails into his skin and moaned, and Daryl did too.
I then pulled back and held his member in my hand, and continued jerking off his length. I then licked him again and swirled my tongue around his tip. He looked up at the ceiling in pleasure and ran his other hand in my hair and massaged my head.
"I want you to come in my mouth." I said between licks, and then inserted him into my mouth again.
Daryl looked down at me and held eye contact as I deep-throated him. He groaned as he bucked his hips again and pushed into me. I moaned in pleasure as his thrusts became faster, and I felt him twitching inside me. He started groaning more and then let out a long moan. I felt his warm come fill my mouth and I swallowed it, with only a little dripping out and down my chin. He bucked his hips a few more times as he finished and I sucked him off until he was done. He then pulled out and I licked my lips, loving the taste of him on my tongue.
"That was nice." I said and looked up at him, only to see him smirking down at me.
"Now it's your turn." He said in a low voice and carefully pushed me back.
I moaned as he laid me down and began removing my pants, leaving on just my underwear. He then crawled on top of me and kissed my cheek before my lips. He then looked down at my pregnant stomach and began massaging it, and holding it before lowering himself down in between my thighs.
Daryl used his teeth to pull down my underwear and finished removing them with his hand. My body clenched up at the touch of him, and he caressed the inner of my thigh.
"Relax baby." He said as he lowered his lips onto my core.
He began by softly sucking my clit and nibbled on it, and it felt amazing. I grabbed a handful of his hair and closed my eyes as I rested my head against the sheets, and he continued to lick me up and down. I moaned and reached for a pillow on the bed, and placed it under my head. He hummed against my core, and I felt the heat radiating between my legs. I started rocking my hips, rubbing my core along his face, and moaned again. Daryl then inserted a finger into me and I gasped at the sensation. He started off slowly, but then began fingering me at a fast pace.
"Ooooohh!" I moaned loudly, and used the pillow to muffle the noise.
Daryl continued to use his tongue and finger at the same pace, bringing me close to my climax. I then used both of my hands to cover my face as I began moaning again. I then lowered my hands and gripped the bedsheets, pulling them towards me as I pushed my body down against his lips. He used his free hand to grab my thigh and push my leg outwards, giving him more access. He licked, and sucked, and fingered me harder, and I felt my stomach starting to knot. I bucked my hips up and tossed my head back in pleasure as I felt myself nearing my orgasm.
"Oh my—" I panted and grabbed fistfuls of Daryl's hair with both of my hands.
"Come for me." He mumbled against my lips, and his voice sent me over the edge.
I felt my orgasm coming and I covered my face with the pillow as I moaned. I bucked my hips as I rode out my orgasm, and Daryl pulled out his fingers. He kept eating me out until I finished, and my body relaxed after the release. I tossed the pillow to the side and closed my eyes, breathing heavy but smiling at the high. Daryl then crawled on top of me again, and kissed my lips, and I tasted myself on him. I moaned into his mouth and he ran his fingers through my hair. We pulled back from the kiss and laid their with our eyes fixed on each other.
"Thank you." I whispered as I caressed his cheek and left my thumb lingering on his lower lip.
Daryl kissed my lips again, then my nose, then my forehead, and I smiled with pure ecstasy.
"I love you Kell." He whispered back. "So much."

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It was the next morning and I was only covered with a sheet. I was laying on my side and Daryl's arm was slung over my waist, and his hand was resting on my stomach. I grabbed his hand and I heard him wake up. He rubbed my stomach and I hummed. I rolled over and we looked at each other.
"How you feeling?" He asked.
"Amazing actually." I said and smiled. "I really needed that."
Daryl smiled and lightly kissed me. He rested his head on my chest and I pet his hair.
"You wanna know what I was realizing?" I asked.
"Huh?" He mumbled as he kissed my chest.
"This was our first time in a bed." I said.
Daryl laughed at me and I laughed too. He then sat up in bed and looked at me.
"I love you." He said.
I sat up in bed and kept myself covered with the sheet. He caressed my cheek and I kissed him.
"I love you too." I said.
I yawned and stretched as I got out of bed. Daryl stared at my now half dressed body, and I just tilted my head at him. 
"You are beautiful." He said.
"Even with this?" I said and rubbed my stomach.
"Of course. That just makes you even more beautiful." He said.
I smiled and walked over to him. I leaned forward and kissed his forehead.
"I'm going to take a shower. I'll meet you downstairs." I said.
After my shower, I decided to leave my hair down. I changed into the same clothes and brushed my teeth. I sat on the bed, put on my boots, and left the room.
I walked downstairs and saw the group was already up and active. They stared at me as I walked in and I sighed.
"I'm sorry about last night." I said. "I didn't mean to scare or upset anyone."
Carl looked at me and I pulled him in for a hug. Abraham then stepped forwards and held out his hand.
"I'm should apologize for my actions last night." He said. "We all got our own demons to fight, and that was your battle."
I nodded and shook his hand. He pulled me in for a hug and I smiled. I looked over at Rick and saw that he didn't want to look at me. I just sighed and shrugged my shoulders.
"Okay, today we explore the place." Rick said. "Come back when you guys are done."
I nodded and walked outside. I saw Daryl sitting on the steps of the porch with his crossbow next to him. I sat down next to him and rested my head on his shoulder.
"He said to explore, not sit on the porch." I said.
"Nah, I'll stay." He said.
He stared at his hands and I held them. He looked up at me and I smiled.
"It's okay to keep your guard up, but you're gonna have to loosen up sometime." I said.
"I just need some time." He said.
"I know." I said. "We all do."
I kissed his cheek and slowly stood up, and walked down the steps.
"Kell, wait." He said and stood up. "Come here."
I smiled, walked back over to him, and he kissed me lightly.
"I love you." He said.
I kissed him again and smiled. He stopped and looked at my lips.
"One more." He said.
I kissed him again and I noticed Rick was watching us from the porch. I quickly kissed Daryl again and then let go.
"I'll see you later today." I said.
"Okay." He said.
I let go of his hand and walked down the street. I saw Carl pushing Judith in a baby stroller and smiled. I walked by his side and he nodded at me.
"Dad said I should visit some of the neighbors. You wanna come with me?" He asked.
"Yeah, sure." I said.
I took a deep breath as I tried to prepared myself. I wasn't sure how this was going to turn out. It's been so long since I've talked to "normal" people, and I was anxious.
"You're fine Kelley." I thought to myself. "How bad can this even be?"