Fall'n For The New Guy | | Harrison Reid

Chapter Twelve

After Harrison and I are done eating we make our way back to my apartment.

"You sure the visiting hours are still going at this time? It's like 9:36 PM"

"We'll make it. The visiting hours end at  10:00 PM and it's only a 16 minute drive."

"Okay." We get to the apartment and I unlock the car already having my keys with me.

On the drive there it's silent, "If I may ask....do you know how long your dad has left or if he's going to have surgery?" Harrison asks breaking the silence.

"Well...the doctors say there's a 89 percent chance that he won't make it through the surgery. I want him to go through with it so I can have my dad back but that's not really a good percentage." I tell him I hold back tears.

"Yeah..."

"He um." I choke back tears, "He only has a year left maybe less." A tear makes its way down my cheek but I quickly wipe it away. "When they..um when they found the tumour on his brain it was to big to get rid of and I wasn't there to help him, Hoppo was actually with him when he started having a seizure. They're um they're good friends and still are..I just wish I had been there and saw the signs, but instead I was in my apartment having my own life which was horrible. It's all my fault."

"It's not your fault."

"But it is. If I was there I could've seen the signs or if I visited him more often."

"You can't beat yourself up about this. It's nobody's fault."

"You know who's fault it is? God's fault. He decides that it's ALRIGHT to just TAKE my dad away from me!" I hit the steering wheel tears leaking out of my eyes.

"Tess pull over." I pull over and break down crying laying my arms on the stirring wheel burying my face in my arm sobbing.

"It's not fair. Why me?" I hear Harrison's seat belt click then feel arms wrap around me a hand rubbing soothing circles on my back.

"God has a plan for everything. Maybe this is what your dad wants, so he can see his wife again. You have to look on the brighter side of things. I know it's hard to but you have to."

I turn to Harrison wrapping my arms around him sobbing into his shirt. He rubs my back slowly.

"Let me drive alright." Harrison says I pull away sniffling and nod.

"Okay." I say quietly and un buck my seat belt and get out.

We switch spots.

I sniffle as I put my seat belt on.

"You okay?" Harrison asks.

I give him a small nod, "I think so."

"Good because I don't think your dad wants to see you cryin." Harrison says trying to lighten the mood.

I chuckle wiping away my sad tears, "You're right."

***

I walk into my dad's room and see him laying in the medical bed eyes open.

"Hey dad...I'm sorry I haven't visited you lately." I smile a sad smile knowing he can't respond. "If your wondering who this is, this is one of the guys I work with, Harrison. He's a one of the new trainees." I tell him he lays there motionless. "I can only be here for Five minutes because visiting hours end at 10 but I will come visit you more often. I just been so busy lately."

I take his hand in mine. "I love you dad." I tear rolls down my face and I quickly wipe it away. "And I will always love you." I feel him slowly squeeze my hand I smile as another warm tear runs down my face. I kiss him on the head choking back sobs.