Panic Attacks // Ruel // English

Chapter 44

I walk up the driveway of my house and in the distance I see someone approaching. I start to slow down when I see who it is.

Daniel: "Hey Iced Coffee Latte." He greets me with a smile as we walk to the door.
Yasmine: "Ready for it?" I ask him when I put the key in the lock.
Daniel: "Think so. You?"
Yasmine: "Never."

I push the door open and let him in.

Nola quickly comes to her boyfriend and takes him away from my side. It was nice to have someone in the house who does not make angry noise. He is a quiet boy.

I can smell food coming from the kitchen. It's actually not a familiar fragrance to me. I don't smell food that often in this house. Well, not like this.

I am told dinner is almost ready, so I walk to the dining table and sit down. Hoping my mom won't sit next to me. And then I notice something. There are 5 glasses or table.

Nola and Daniel soon come to sit at the table.

Nola: "So you already knew each other?"
I smile and just shrug.
Daniel: "Yes, she comes for an Iced Coffee Late a few times a week." He says laughing.
Nola: "I already thought you had a caffeine addiction."
Yasmine: "Oh it's not that bad."

While Daniel tells things about his family, I don't pay attention to my surroundings. But I am taken out of the story by a kissing sound, which did not come from Nola and Daniel. I turn around and stiffen for a moment, but then get up.

Yasmine: "Austin what the fuck are you doing here?" I panic ask.
In the kitchen about three meters further up my father is standing with my mother.
Austin: "It was a family dinner after all." He says. He knows I don't want this.
My heart starts to beat so hard that I can still feel it deep in my gut.

Yasmine: "Mom we made a promise!" I shout at her.
She glares at me.
Yasmine: "I'd go out to dinner with this killer and he wouldn't step in this house again!"
Mom: "Watch your words, young lady, that's not how people talk. And I never made that promise."
Inside I'm screaming even louder with anger.

Yasmine: "You know. I thought you all had a little bit of understanding left for me. But I think that was just false hope. You don't care about me. And don't say you do. Because all of you know that I don't want to be around this man. Never! "
Nola: "I totally care about you."
Yasmine: "Oh show that please. You knew about these lovebirds, didn't you? ... Exactly."

Yasmine: "Austin how's your jaw actually doing? Oh wait, I don't fucking care because I haven't broken it. I should have hit your nose. Just until it broke."
Austin: "You're not even trying your best to forgive me."
Yasmine: "Forget I'm going to forgive you. You screwed up about 2 or 3 years ago."
I roll my eyes and angrily walk towards the hall. But before I completely disappear from their sight, I turn around once more.

Yasmine: "If I find your goddamn moving boxes here too, I'll be out of this house! And please keep your dirty love stuff out of my face."
Austin: "You don't say anything about me Yasmine. You don't own me, do you?" He says when I disappear down the hall.
Yasmine: "Oh I have more power than you think Austin! Keep your dirty hands off!" I yell at him as I rip my jacket off the coat rack.
Just before I walk out the door I shout one more thing.
Yasmine: "Do me a favor and fuck mom so hard she can't walk anymore. Maybe it will brighten her mood!"
And then I close the door behind me, which closes the lock with a loud bang.

I have come to my safe home and ring the bell.
Ruel: "Yas?" He says as he opens the front door for me.
My arms fly around his neck and I hold him very close to me. I start crying when he puts his arms around my body.
My body doesn't like this sudden physical contact anymore, but I need it.