Panic Attacks // Ruel // English

Chapter 48

(Ruel's pov)
The first thing I notice when I wake up to loud voices is that Yasmine is no longer next to me. It takes me a while to process where I actually am. But then I can finally remember what happened a few hours ago.

The voices I hear make me very restless. It does not feel right. I get out of bed and walk to the hallway. I almost stumble over a large box in my way.

My heart starts to beat faster when I recognize Yasmine's voice in the conversation. Let's just say, the fight.  Because that is what it is. Painful words go back and forth.

I am at the top of the stairs and can clearly hear what they are saying. If I hang far enough over the railing of the stairs I can see what is happening. But I don't want them to see me. At first I couldn't place the other two voices, but she's arguing with her parents. It doesn't feel good to bug them, but I'm going to regret it if I don't and she is going to need me and I'm not there for her.

Yasmine: "Why don't you believe me when I say we didn't have sex? And what does it matter? What do you care about?! Maybe we had sex. What do you want to do about it now?" She shouts angrily.
Austin: "He is using you for your body. We just want to protect you." Her father says.

My heart falls down and my eyes are starting with watering. She can't believe what he says because that's not true. That's not the point for me, at all. I don't want to use her.

Yasmine: "You don't want to protect me at all. You are just breaking me. If you really cared about me , then you should be happy that I feel happy with Ruel. That I can feel safe with someone. He won't use me for my body, I know that. "
Christy: "This is all part of his game dear."
I can feel the icy wind coming from her words.

I want to run away. It hurts me too much to hear what they think about me. But my feet are nailed to the floor.

Yasmine: "Stop it! You just can't be grateful for the fact that your daughter can finally move on with her life. That she dares to take steps for herself. And found someone who can help her, who takes her to safety,  that makes her feel loved. Because no one around her can do that."
It feels like her voice is about to break at any time and she can no longer hold back her tears.
Austin: "I don't trust him!" He shouts.
Yasmine: "I don't care if you trust him or not! Most importantly, I love him. And you can't take that away from me!"

Her words shed a tear and it rolls down my cheek. She knows very well how she feels about me, she just doesn't dare to speak it out to me. And that doesn't matter. She must be ready to tell me.

Daniel comes out of Nola's room and comes to stand next to me. I quickly wipe the tear from my cheek with the palm of my hand.
Daniel: "It is about you, isn't it?"
I nod and then look down again. He stands next to me and listens. He had probably also been woken up by the yelling.

Christy: "You have really gone completely crazy. You know that?!"

I don't understand why they get so angry with her. There is no reason to get angry at her. She doesn't deserve it.

Yasmine: "Yes you drive me crazy. Day in and day out nagging on my mind. Having to fight over and over again." She folds her arms and glares angrily at her parents. I don't need to see her look, I can see it in her posture.
Christy: "We don't have to fight if you just act normal."
Yasmine: "I should start acting normal? Sorry! You guys should start acting normal. I'm just standing up for my own rights. You make me feel like I'm locked up in your home-made prison."
Christy: "It is only a protection for the outside world."
Yasmine: "Did I call it a butterfly garden?! No, did I?. It's a prison. I can protect myself by now. I'm not a little kid anymore!"
Christy: "Your mind is far from good enough." She says meanly.
Yasmine: "My memory is good enough to remember that you, Austin, can't be in here. And certainly not with your fucking moving boxes!" She shouts angrily through the house.