Cigarette Daydreams - Regulus Black X Reader

Chapter 43 - Hospital visit

The next morning I woke up early, which was very unusual for me, I just put on a hoodie, which happened to belong to Reg, over my night clothes and walked to the hospital wing.

He was still asleep, looking a little bruised from where he hit the sand but other than that fine. I didn't want to wake him so I sat in the chair next to his bed, yawning softly from the early start I had. I wanted to be there for him when he woke up.

Not long after, he started to stir as I was reading a book. "Y/n." He mumbled sleepily and rubbed his eyes.

"Rise and shine." I said quietly so as not to make anyone else and held his hand gently.

"Did we loose the match?" He asked me, his voice was raspy from tiredness.

"Yeah, the sub wasn't nearly as good as you." I was so glad to see tht he was alright, part of me was scared he was going to die yesterday but that was just me worrying.

"So you admit I'm good." He smirked.

"Yeah, until you fell off." I laughed and kissed his head. "Why did you put yourself in the way of that bludger? Didn't you see it coming?" I asked him.

"Of course I saw it. I saw it going towards you. I didn't really think I just knew it would hit you." He shrugged.

"You took that for me?" I was stunned, I knew he loved me but I never thought he would do all that for me, it's not something you just expect of someone. Now I felt bad, I should have seen it coming. Reg was in hospital because of me.

"Don't be too surprised." He chuckled. "I've already told you, there's nothing I wouldn't do to protect you. Now get in here and kiss it better." He smiled weakly and moved up so I could climb in to his bed.

"I'm sorry Reg I should have been looking. You didn't have to do that." I cuddled up to him, it was a lot warmer in his bed than on that chair and he put his arms around me. "It scared the hell out of me."

"Shush it's alright." He whispered and kissed my hand. "I'd do it again you know. Glory, glory what a hell of a way to die!" He sang jokingly and I laughed.

"Pull anything like that again and if the bludger doesn't kill you I will." I chuckled. I put my hand on the side of his face and kissed him gently. He kissed me back and held me in his arms, we had to be very close as it was not to fall off the single bed.

"I'm not that hurt anyway, a couple of broken ribs apparently but Madam Pomfrey healed them over night." He said, clearly trying to reassure me.

"You're still handsome as ever." I grinned and kissed his cheek.

"Is that my hoodie?" He smiled.

I nodded "Yeah, you're never getting it back you know." I laughed.

"It looks better on you anyway. Did I miss anything interesting while I was getting my beauty sleep?" He smirked while playing with my hair.

"James and Lily are finally together." I smiled, I was still considering whether or not to tell him about the encounter with his mother. Would he rather know? Or not?

"Oh even I knew he's loved her for ages. I'll probably have to listen to Snape bitching about it for the next ten years." He laughed lightly.

"And then as soon as the match finished, I went to come and see you with Sirius but... Your mother was there." I said quietly and I felt his body stiffen at the pure mention of her.

"What did she say? Did she find out?" He asked urgently, his eyes suddenly wide in a fear I'd never before seen in him.

"No no, Sirius made an excuse that he wanted to see you and I said I was just accompanying him." I explained and he seemed a little more relaxed. "She was rude but nothing too bad. Don't worry about it."

"Sirius and I must be the only two people in all of Hogwarts who aren't excited for the summer." He sighed and rested his head back.

"It will be alright," I said softly "send me one owl about it and I'll come and break you out of there."

He chuckled "I'll be alright, I'm better at playing their game than Sirius is. Six whole weeks without seeing you, how will I cope?" He said dramatically and pulled me closer to him, his arms around my waist.

"You'll see me again soon enough. Here keep this on you..." I reached to the back of my neck and unclasped the golden lion necklace I was wearing. "I have my ring, you have my necklace. It's one of my favorites but I want you to have it." I said as I put the gold necklace in his hand.

He smiled and held it in his hand. "You're so cute." He put it on and kissed me softly. "I fell in front of the entire school for you, that's so embarrassing." He laughed and then realization dawned on his face. "Wait- Sirius came to see me?"

"Yeah he did. He was worried I could see it." I nodded, their relationship was hard to understand. It was almost like they were told to hate each other and they sort of did but they didn't want to.

He went a little quiet and just nodded he cuddled up closer to me for comfort. "Reg what's the matter?" I asked gently.

"Don't worry, it's stupid." He shook his head.

"Your feelings are never stupid." I reassured him "you can tell me anything you need to."

"It's just... I always looked up to Sirius you know. He was everything I wanted to be. He was always braver than me, he stood up to my mother when we were so young. He was my best friend before anyone else, it was us two against everything.
When I was bad, he always made sure he was worse but not bad enough that my parents would take it out on me too. I never realised until I got older, he took countless beatings, hexes and all kinds of punishments to protect me.
Then when he went off to Hogwarts and I was left alone in that house... Worst year of my life." He said quietly, he never spoke of his family so when he did I obviously listened and comforted him. "When he was sorted into Gryffindor, I was told he was no longer my brother and I just couldn't see how Sirius could be bad but I had to hate him. He wrote to me every single week and I wasn't allowed to read any of the letters.
They punished me for his actions, for hanging around with you guys, for being a Gryffindor and just being Sirius in general. Not that I had any part in it, he didn't choose his house either I suppose."
His eyes focused on a random point in thin air as he was explaining, as though he was reliving all the memories. I knew Sirius was the first Black in five hundred years not to be in Slytherin, but I didn't know how much Reg had suffered for that. "I didn't even know you and I hated you for it. For taking my brother from me. I blamed you and your friends for my mother's wrath.
Over the years, he acted out more and more and then staying at your house for the holidays so obviously I started to be prepared as the Black family heir. It's terrifying. All I've ever known is family honour and abuse, I suppose I always knew that the curses, the cuts, that wasn't what normal families did but now... I can't live like that. I won't have that be my life."

I put my arms around him and hugged him tightly. "Oh Reg..." I sighed. "I always thought I knew about your family but I had no idea you went through all that. You seemed always seemed so... sure of yourself, like, I don't know, like you were born for the role. That was until I got to know you of course. I'm so sorry for any part I had in your pain."

"Don't be sorry." He shook his head. "How could you know? I am what they made me I suppose...
I'm sorry you shouldn't have to put up with my ranting." He mumbled, his head in my shoulder.

"Shush you took a bludger for me. I don't mind at all, and besides I wanna be here for you." I told him and kissed his cheek. "You're nothing like them you have a heart of gold. We'll find a way out I promise, we'll figure it out together."

"Stay with me, just for a while."

"Of course I will." I told him "Always."

(( I am so attached to this couple wow thanks for 11k reads I love writing this and seeing all the comments 
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